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Sorry i havent posted in a long time. havent exactlly had anything to talk about well i guess i will tell you about my week that was pretty gay. Adam didnt come to school wednesday or thursday he came on friday but i only saw him for maybe a total of 20 minutes all day cuz he had a doc. appt or his arm cuz he broke it on tuesday night. That was the only thing that happened this week that is actually worth talking about. Last night me and Adam kinda got into a lil argument about him going to a different school, he wants to leave me and go to southwest. Im scard that if he does we wont work. I Love him to death but i tried that with one of my exes and when he left he ended up cheating on me. Im not saying Adam would do that but i am scared of what might happen cuz i wont be there to see what is going on for myself and i dont know anybody there. And plus another thing is then he wont be there when i need him. It'll just be hard and what is really making me mad is that the only reason i stayed in this damn school is so i could see him every day, and now he is thinking about leaving. Im afraid of losing him. Also, i know for a fact that if he leaves he is gonna be worried about me and what im doing, and i will get pissed for him always worrying and asking me about it and it will cause problems. But, he got all mad at me when i told him i didnt think it would work...ggrr...i swear im a bitch, i want him to be happy and all but if he leaves im nto happy and i want us to be happy together not apart. I dont know what to do i dont want him to think im trying to run his life or nuthin but i will prob. be mad at him even tho i want him happy i just dont know gggrr..long night