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GAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH Anger coursing, never fading, Always cascading, wait, what am I saying? I am so mad right now its not even funny. Everything is going wrong and no one gives a damn. Although I am not surprised that once again my life has made a fucked up and unexpected turn, I wish that for once things could go the way that I wanted them to. It'd be great if I could have just a little bit of time of happiness, but I know that its not going to happen because it never does. I hate being angry, I mean all it does is add to the already overflowing buildup of it, but of course no one cares about that. Its aggrivating for me to think of how I was sooo close to being a little happy, but I needn't think of that for its not "healthy" to think of bad things. My life has been a bad thing. I wonder sometimes how things would have turned out for the people I know had they never known me, had I never been born. It would be great to see that for I could see how many lives I've ruined and how many I've helped. It would either tell me good things about myself, or how worthless I am, either way it would be a learning experience >.<, and I'm not talking one of those 3rd-grade-field-trip-to-the-boring-as-hell-opera-learning-experiences either,I am talking about the Damn-is-my-life-worth-living-kinda-learning-experiences. Oh well, never going to happen.