Last chance on a new start...
Well it is the end of the first day of a new year. I take time to reflect on the past 12 months with astonishment. It has been a long year to say the least. Moving out and working full time. To forming a new brothership that will last a lifetime, I became Bolivian. I loved, truly and deeply. I have lost and shared lost with others. I hiked the Appalachian Trail or at least 1500 miles of it. I am ending 05 on my least chance for a new start.
I started 05 down in Chesapeake with my girlfriend of the time Michelle. I had a blast at Niks with Poore and others. Funny how Chesapeake was home for me at the beginning of the year and now... well I am not sure where home is anymore, I guess it will always be Chesapeake in some way. I moved in with Matthew and John Paul Dziekan in January. Wow was it great to move out of my parents. Well the next 6 months where a bit of a rollercoaster. I had some times though. I was the only white boy at many of a party. So I was adopted Bolivian. I learnt how to drink, and how to stop. There are no hangers in men’s!!! LOL I was CAC lead at Sears working full time and then I switched to selling Vacs and bedding. Well things where going downhill and that is when shit started happening. Life on your own is hard, it is always great to have someone, and I am talking about family. This year was a year marked with loss. Mr. Poore passed and that was a trip and an event will never be forgotten. The true measure of love and faith amount family and friends. Now to Michelle. God was I am idiot. I can't even think of a good reason that I could not have seen how much I truly cared about her before it was too late. I was stupid that was all. Well My trip really opened my eyes and well ended it all in one swift move, could that be irony? Talking about opening my eyes. Living in the woods for 4 months will change your view on life.
Now I am back in my parents and back in school working to graduate and make a life for myself, I have a few Ideas of what I want to do, but nothing nailed down yet. I survived the holidays alone. I really miss Michelle and wished things would have been different. My life is really empty without her there; I don't think she ever had any idea of how large a part of my life she was. I miss her to death but talking to her still hurts, because she has moved on and now... you all know the story. Funny I have asked myself if I could change it would I? I am not sure, yes but could I? Bah well
The new-year was a fun one. I got so see Nik, and had a small "get-together". Well now I have to make good on my new-year promise. To be happy with my life and with myself, content with life and live it
Lober / Duck14 /Widget
I started 05 down in Chesapeake with my girlfriend of the time Michelle. I had a blast at Niks with Poore and others. Funny how Chesapeake was home for me at the beginning of the year and now... well I am not sure where home is anymore, I guess it will always be Chesapeake in some way. I moved in with Matthew and John Paul Dziekan in January. Wow was it great to move out of my parents. Well the next 6 months where a bit of a rollercoaster. I had some times though. I was the only white boy at many of a party. So I was adopted Bolivian. I learnt how to drink, and how to stop. There are no hangers in men’s!!! LOL I was CAC lead at Sears working full time and then I switched to selling Vacs and bedding. Well things where going downhill and that is when shit started happening. Life on your own is hard, it is always great to have someone, and I am talking about family. This year was a year marked with loss. Mr. Poore passed and that was a trip and an event will never be forgotten. The true measure of love and faith amount family and friends. Now to Michelle. God was I am idiot. I can't even think of a good reason that I could not have seen how much I truly cared about her before it was too late. I was stupid that was all. Well My trip really opened my eyes and well ended it all in one swift move, could that be irony? Talking about opening my eyes. Living in the woods for 4 months will change your view on life.
Now I am back in my parents and back in school working to graduate and make a life for myself, I have a few Ideas of what I want to do, but nothing nailed down yet. I survived the holidays alone. I really miss Michelle and wished things would have been different. My life is really empty without her there; I don't think she ever had any idea of how large a part of my life she was. I miss her to death but talking to her still hurts, because she has moved on and now... you all know the story. Funny I have asked myself if I could change it would I? I am not sure, yes but could I? Bah well
The new-year was a fun one. I got so see Nik, and had a small "get-together". Well now I have to make good on my new-year promise. To be happy with my life and with myself, content with life and live it
Lober / Duck14 /Widget