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I was planning on scrubbing the wood floors today but after the phone call i just recieved a few hour ago...id rather carve obsene words into them with a sharp object. I cussed at my realestate lady today even though i know none of this is her fault and now im sitting here on the fucking computer because i have no life and nothing better to do. All i want is alcohol and smokes and i have neither! If i wasnt a fucking freak I could just drive myself to the store to get some....but i wont go anywhere alone!I dont want to be in this house! People started moving in upstairs today and now we dont even know if we can buy this house. No wonder all i am capable of doing is thinking negative thoughts and being a fucking depressed little emo bitch! Nothing ever goes good for me. I dont even know how to be happy or ecxited anymore because im constantly worrying and constantly waiting for someone or something else to take a shit on me!