Christmas

[dubwas]

You know when your a kid Christmas is a great thing theres lightning in the air you can feel it you know its a splendid day that fills you up. For me its just another day. Actually a sad one because I miss what Christmas meant to me once...No its just well crap. Sigh... We have Christmas dinner which is nice a turkey and fixings but its just me my mom and my brother. They day went on and I wasted time playing Call of Duty 4 a present for my brother that I got. I got the new Resident Evil game for myself I did not get a bunch of presents I didn't expect to my mother got me some underwear and socks which I need sort of a lack luster gift but then I catch her crying because Gorge took some money from her and shes really upset. I don't know the magic is gone at least for me. I had to work Christmas eve so I missed chilling with Flizbat which sucks. I should called in but I didn't want my manager yelling at me for it and on Thursday I close at work which blows. I don't I just feel empty is all. Piss I don't really want to bring everyones jolly sprits down Hell I should try to be more cheerful. Its just hard. I feel a bit off as of late in general. Hopefully things will pan out hell new years may be great. and theirs next year Ill start classes again and hell I may just make some friends.

Well Merry Christmas! Everyone!