Concerts and random shit
I've been really wanting to go to a concert lately. Specifically a NIN and Tool show. APC or Pearl Jam would be cool though. Something i can really "rock out" too and sing and go crazy. i want to loose my voice.
Maybe i just want to get some of my stress out. Wear myself out and then pass out, wake up and feel refreshed and ready to go.
School's been on my mind a real lot lately. I have that incomplete i've been working on, coupled with midterms coming up, projects due, and papers due in at least two classes at all times.
I really need to get a new trade mark icon, i like my purple eye one, but i want something new. Don't really have time to hunt down a new one. And i don't know what happened to the LJ community where i got that one. I guess it was deleted or something. Sadness. it was really cool.
That was random.
The ashley thing is still going on. I wish so badly i could get her to attack me and stop attacking josh. She's such a manipulative bitch. She's turning people, even teachers (tho that's just un-professional on their part), against him to mask the fact that she cheated on her boyfriend. Now every one thinks he's the ass, when they don't even know the whole story and are like, ignoring the fact that she's known to be a whore. She says she has trust issues and he betrayed her, but she doesn't. She barely even knew him when she told him not to say anything when she was cheating on her bf, and it didn't seem like such an issue when like a week later she had him over her house and easliy explaining why she doesn't mind cheating on her bf, who seems like a decent guy btw. i feel really bad for him. wish i could tell him everything, so she'll stop wasting people's time. Grah., she makes me sooo mad. Like she has a right to put on some act in school, i wish josh would just spill everything to the guidance councellor lady that Ashely whined to, and his classmates so that won't ostracize him. That's the bullshit about highschool. once one person give any piece of their side of a story (that is none of their busines to begin with) those people they told only remember that side and don't even care to hear the rest of it. They just need a person to attack to feel like "well at least i'm not like THAT" Such bull.... I hate that i can't do anything. piss me off...
in other news... work is going fine, i've learned how to do returns in recieving at the book store. got a bunch of free books stocked up. I have a copy of Godlsayer if any one is interested in reading the Sundering series by Jacquelin Carey (amazing writer in my opinion).
The bank is going to be doing alot of 'shops' at the branches, so i have to be all proper n stuff. That kinda sucks, but whatever.
What else...
Oh yeah, I'm so sick of my dad changing his mind. He has no reason to act how he has been acting when it comes to Josh. It's such bull shit. He went from letting josh stay at the house for over a week, to not even letting him in the house. It's so aggravating. he's making my life so much harder by pulling this shit. I can't do homework at the house because i cna't have josh here, and i just can't give up my time with Josh. I need to see him and the weekends are my only shot. So lately i've had to stay at my Cousin's and Uncle's house to deal with travel issues when i have to work. It sucks soo much. I enjoy my cousin's house and my Uncles alot, i just hate feeling like they think i'm using them completely. I know in a way i am, but i love seeing them and being at their houses. It makes me sooo happy that josh gets along with them both really well. I WANT to stay at their houses, even if i could stay at mine still, i'd prefer theirs, cause its comfortable and happy. But it sucks that it comes off kinda negatively liek this because i can't even have the option of GOING to my house now... grah! Angry again....
I don't know what else. I'll probably post a song later or something. I have to go type a paper now. And call Adriana. she probably thinks i forgot about her, but i just haven't had time to talk.. wahh...
Maybe i just want to get some of my stress out. Wear myself out and then pass out, wake up and feel refreshed and ready to go.
School's been on my mind a real lot lately. I have that incomplete i've been working on, coupled with midterms coming up, projects due, and papers due in at least two classes at all times.
I really need to get a new trade mark icon, i like my purple eye one, but i want something new. Don't really have time to hunt down a new one. And i don't know what happened to the LJ community where i got that one. I guess it was deleted or something. Sadness. it was really cool.
That was random.
The ashley thing is still going on. I wish so badly i could get her to attack me and stop attacking josh. She's such a manipulative bitch. She's turning people, even teachers (tho that's just un-professional on their part), against him to mask the fact that she cheated on her boyfriend. Now every one thinks he's the ass, when they don't even know the whole story and are like, ignoring the fact that she's known to be a whore. She says she has trust issues and he betrayed her, but she doesn't. She barely even knew him when she told him not to say anything when she was cheating on her bf, and it didn't seem like such an issue when like a week later she had him over her house and easliy explaining why she doesn't mind cheating on her bf, who seems like a decent guy btw. i feel really bad for him. wish i could tell him everything, so she'll stop wasting people's time. Grah., she makes me sooo mad. Like she has a right to put on some act in school, i wish josh would just spill everything to the guidance councellor lady that Ashely whined to, and his classmates so that won't ostracize him. That's the bullshit about highschool. once one person give any piece of their side of a story (that is none of their busines to begin with) those people they told only remember that side and don't even care to hear the rest of it. They just need a person to attack to feel like "well at least i'm not like THAT" Such bull.... I hate that i can't do anything. piss me off...
in other news... work is going fine, i've learned how to do returns in recieving at the book store. got a bunch of free books stocked up. I have a copy of Godlsayer if any one is interested in reading the Sundering series by Jacquelin Carey (amazing writer in my opinion).
The bank is going to be doing alot of 'shops' at the branches, so i have to be all proper n stuff. That kinda sucks, but whatever.
What else...
Oh yeah, I'm so sick of my dad changing his mind. He has no reason to act how he has been acting when it comes to Josh. It's such bull shit. He went from letting josh stay at the house for over a week, to not even letting him in the house. It's so aggravating. he's making my life so much harder by pulling this shit. I can't do homework at the house because i cna't have josh here, and i just can't give up my time with Josh. I need to see him and the weekends are my only shot. So lately i've had to stay at my Cousin's and Uncle's house to deal with travel issues when i have to work. It sucks soo much. I enjoy my cousin's house and my Uncles alot, i just hate feeling like they think i'm using them completely. I know in a way i am, but i love seeing them and being at their houses. It makes me sooo happy that josh gets along with them both really well. I WANT to stay at their houses, even if i could stay at mine still, i'd prefer theirs, cause its comfortable and happy. But it sucks that it comes off kinda negatively liek this because i can't even have the option of GOING to my house now... grah! Angry again....
I don't know what else. I'll probably post a song later or something. I have to go type a paper now. And call Adriana. she probably thinks i forgot about her, but i just haven't had time to talk.. wahh...