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dubia_lux

Fast, thorough, and sharp as a tack

Dec 08, 2007 16:09

Ah...I know that it is hardly necessary to apologize for one's activities while cursed but ( Read more... )

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silk_in_ebony December 8 2007, 21:56:59 UTC

...there was a moment where you seemed like you had beaten it, but... well, it was not to be, at that time...

I am almost ashamed to say I had no resistance against it at all. It took me rather, ah... strongly.

dubia_lux December 8 2007, 22:03:55 UTC

I study the curses and the City itself intently. Nobody truly has resistance to them, some are simply more likely to succumb.

Since I've been studying them for so long, I can recognize the signs and symptoms in myself and reason my way into a more stable position. Ah...Sometimes by doing this I can "beat" the curse, sometimes not. Often, if I am too far gone, I need someone to point it out to me. Yesterday my mental faculties were directly affected. My intellect, not only my sanity. So I suppose self-awareness was, as you say, not to be.

silk_in_ebony December 8 2007, 22:15:46 UTC

Hmm... I see. That's something worth remembering, and I thank you. Perhaps it won't help now, but maybe in the future, when I have experienced them more deeply. I might not be able to match your intellect, but I could certainly learn to see the signs in myself... maybe. And perhaps stop myself from, ah, what was it? 'Drawing the flock to myself' again.

dubia_lux December 8 2007, 22:29:23 UTC

It is not a common ability. I think Riou is the only other one who's been able to do it and we both study the curses very deeply. It takes a lot of focus and willpower to fight the fog once the signs are recognized and it is time consuming to learn what exactly those signs are.

For nearly six months now, I have been studying curses. And I am still far from able to truly resist them.

silk_in_ebony December 8 2007, 22:35:14 UTC

Perhaps this is so, yet I must believe it is possible. It is a hope I shall hold onto. I feel I shall be here a long, long time... and any efforts I can make towards survival of myself, and therefore the innocents around me, are worthwhile ones. Even if, in reality, it is beyond me, I must try.

dubia_lux December 8 2007, 22:38:23 UTC

Mmm...Then I wish you luck with your endeavor.

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