Invisible
Family parties used to be awesome. Go hang out with cousins who were all older than me, so my siblings and I would get all the attention. It was actually fun back then because we would sit around playing chess games and backgammon, drinking pop, eating food, chatting. Not to say that I couldn't do all that now, just 'cause I'm older. There's no doubt that Don would sit down and play a game of chess with me if I asked. The thing is, we used to not have to ask.
Now instead it's, "How's school going?" "What are you doing after undergrad?" "How are the grades coming?" And it's the same answer over and over again. "Well, I have three things I need to get done for tomorrow, but it's going well grade-wise. And I'm not in a huge hurry to graduate; I have an extra semester, so please don't ask me about what vet school I'm going to, 'cause I have no idea, and you'll get all upset because you think I'm letting you down, when really I'm not....and so on..."
It sucks being older at these parties. I either get ignored or I'm told to go do something, or I'm asked about school. Look, people, I do have a life outside of school also. Believe it or not. And I would be more than happy to tell you about it, but you would think that I'm some freak or something. So I'm not going to tell you. And it's going to aggrevate me to know end knowing that I don't have the same connection to my family members any more.
To sum it up...I'm invisible when it comes to family now. And part of me hates it. And part of me says, "Yay! I can't go to my room and no one will miss me!"
Getting older sucks..
Now instead it's, "How's school going?" "What are you doing after undergrad?" "How are the grades coming?" And it's the same answer over and over again. "Well, I have three things I need to get done for tomorrow, but it's going well grade-wise. And I'm not in a huge hurry to graduate; I have an extra semester, so please don't ask me about what vet school I'm going to, 'cause I have no idea, and you'll get all upset because you think I'm letting you down, when really I'm not....and so on..."
It sucks being older at these parties. I either get ignored or I'm told to go do something, or I'm asked about school. Look, people, I do have a life outside of school also. Believe it or not. And I would be more than happy to tell you about it, but you would think that I'm some freak or something. So I'm not going to tell you. And it's going to aggrevate me to know end knowing that I don't have the same connection to my family members any more.
To sum it up...I'm invisible when it comes to family now. And part of me hates it. And part of me says, "Yay! I can't go to my room and no one will miss me!"
Getting older sucks..