Nov 28, 2006 19:15
I've got sharp pains going right to my head.
And I'm probably developing carpal tunnel syndrome.
I've been keeping to myself about a lot of things as of late.
It's changing me. Who am I?
I suppose that NOBODY but myself can answer that question, and there are those out there that claim to know me. But it's simple that only few do. And, nobody is at fault here. Maybe just me. But life is whatever you make of it and I'm sticking with that.
I'm Amy. I'm content. I'm not complaining anymore.
I'm not worried anymore.
I know what I want to do with my life. Yeah, it's my life. I'll be a nurse, and maybe I'll be yours too. I'll help people. I'll help save people. I'll work with people. People. They're strangers to me, but I will be there to nurse them back to life. literally.
And, I'll have somebody by my side helping me help those people as well.
I havent gotten an acceptance letter, but no matter what, I'm going to do what I wished to do when I was a child. I'm applying to a small college but I'll be out in the big world and I know I wont be alone.
I think I've got a big enough heart to be there for those who are in need. And hopefully I will be able to travel the world in search of something bigger. In search of the assumptions I've made about other places to see if they're true or false.
I've waited 12 years for the moment, and it's going to happen in 7 months. I've grown up. I'm not the child anymore. I'm the young adult. Adult. It's crazy. And it will be me. I will be the adult.
Christmas is right around the corner and it's the giving season. I bring gifts. Gifts that may empty out my bank account, but I bring them. I bring a celebration for my father. Again, a celebration that may re-empty out my bank acccount, but I bring a celebration. It's going to be worth it.
Everything is worth it.
Tonight, that is all I have to offer.
And I'm still content.
That's all.
the end.
k,bye