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Yeah, I'm just sucking at life right now... I'm having a really hard time keeping up with school. I've been really scared about going out of my house and stuff. I don't know why. I don't even know if I'll be able to go out for Halloween tonight. I'm gonna try, hopefully by night time I'll feel better.
I didn't get to sleep til the sun was up. Then my brother called at 9 but I didn't answer, then I started thinking about what the hell he would have been calling about, then I started picturing all the horrible things that must have happened to spur him to call me at 9 in the freaking morning. But he hasn't answered his phone. I thought it might have to do with my dad so I called him, and he is still alive.
But they're going to try to send him back to jail. Indefinitely. For the holidays. Until his trial. It's fucked up. It's FUCKED UP what they do to people in this world. Its FUCKED UP how few people have a conscience.
I feel like everything is falling apart. I'm sure I'll get myself back together, but it all just sucks so bad. I can hardly keep up with the real world in general, the world outside my mind, let alone school and all the shit I have to get done for this or that or whatever the hell the new developments in the family are.
Damn, man.
I didn't get to sleep til the sun was up. Then my brother called at 9 but I didn't answer, then I started thinking about what the hell he would have been calling about, then I started picturing all the horrible things that must have happened to spur him to call me at 9 in the freaking morning. But he hasn't answered his phone. I thought it might have to do with my dad so I called him, and he is still alive.
But they're going to try to send him back to jail. Indefinitely. For the holidays. Until his trial. It's fucked up. It's FUCKED UP what they do to people in this world. Its FUCKED UP how few people have a conscience.
I feel like everything is falling apart. I'm sure I'll get myself back together, but it all just sucks so bad. I can hardly keep up with the real world in general, the world outside my mind, let alone school and all the shit I have to get done for this or that or whatever the hell the new developments in the family are.
Damn, man.