Realizations
It is all true. Everything that the Doctor had told me is true. I daren't reveal my thoughts here concerning what I speak of, for it would surely have me killed quicker than the secret of Hyde's true connection with me.
I had thought I would be relieved in finding out the truth, but now there is nothing but uneasiness. Damn my eyes! My insatiable curiosity has given me knowledge I was better without! What will I do now? What can I do now? Nothing, I presume. This matter is out of my power. But something has to be done! People are getting hurt, becoming weak, and someone may die.
A guilt plagues me that I know what is happening, yet I cannot say without consequences. I know I should not think this way, but I feel so...helpless.
I will write no further of this tonight. It would not do well for me to linger upon these thoughts. I will worry myself into the ground, surely. Instead I will turn my attention to walk and the delightful conversation I had. It is not often that I am able to speak with certain people, and I must say that it was a pleasant surprise when I offered my services of escorting to Miss Daae and she accepted.
We lingered about the outside of the mansion, circling it completely, I believe, speaking of a many number of things; one of which was Hyde. I warned the lovely young lady of him, just as I had with everyone. I also mentioned my sickness and what should happen if Hyde becomes accosted by the mob. It is in my hope that she would say something to the others should conversation about him is drudged up, though by her timid nature I do not think she would.
Upon our trek we had come across Mrs. Linton and Mr. Gray, both of them rather close and speaking low. I still cannot help but feel that he is up to something. Perhaps it is...another matter that is inducing my opinion of him, though I very much doubt it. I have not had such a reaction before, save with the Count and...No, it would not do well to think Mr. Gray is the same. But could he be?
I am back upon that topic again... It signifies that it is time for me to close this book and try to rest. I doubt there will be much sleeping this evening, though. My thoughts are too weighted.
I had thought I would be relieved in finding out the truth, but now there is nothing but uneasiness. Damn my eyes! My insatiable curiosity has given me knowledge I was better without! What will I do now? What can I do now? Nothing, I presume. This matter is out of my power. But something has to be done! People are getting hurt, becoming weak, and someone may die.
A guilt plagues me that I know what is happening, yet I cannot say without consequences. I know I should not think this way, but I feel so...helpless.
I will write no further of this tonight. It would not do well for me to linger upon these thoughts. I will worry myself into the ground, surely. Instead I will turn my attention to walk and the delightful conversation I had. It is not often that I am able to speak with certain people, and I must say that it was a pleasant surprise when I offered my services of escorting to Miss Daae and she accepted.
We lingered about the outside of the mansion, circling it completely, I believe, speaking of a many number of things; one of which was Hyde. I warned the lovely young lady of him, just as I had with everyone. I also mentioned my sickness and what should happen if Hyde becomes accosted by the mob. It is in my hope that she would say something to the others should conversation about him is drudged up, though by her timid nature I do not think she would.
Upon our trek we had come across Mrs. Linton and Mr. Gray, both of them rather close and speaking low. I still cannot help but feel that he is up to something. Perhaps it is...another matter that is inducing my opinion of him, though I very much doubt it. I have not had such a reaction before, save with the Count and...No, it would not do well to think Mr. Gray is the same. But could he be?
I am back upon that topic again... It signifies that it is time for me to close this book and try to rest. I doubt there will be much sleeping this evening, though. My thoughts are too weighted.