~*To you*~
Kristi, this is the only way I'm able to talk to you sense your not returning any of my phone calls. And I really hate to talk to you this way. But obviously this is the only way I'm going to be able to.
Look...I know Friday was a big disaster. And I had no reason to freak out at you. I needed to talk to you that day, but I couldn't, Jessica was there. I wanted to explain somethings to you that day, about what was on my mind..and why Im not "being myself." Well, I will tell you now...this is the only way.
I am more than happy that you and Kevin are together. I know thats what you wanted most and I couldn't be more happier for you. But, theres just one thing. Now that you have a b/f, is there room for me?? Your best friend? I remember one time along time ago. You said, "no guy will ever come in between our friendship, no matter who we are going out with, we will always be best friends forever." What happened to that statement?? I thought that we were BOTH going to stick to it? Obviously not.
Kristi, Like I said I couldn't be more happier for you. But does it mean that sense you have Kevin, you have to be with him all the time?? Does it mean that your not allowed to have a best friend? What does it mean?? Because thats how it seems now. What happened to the Kristi i knew a long time ago?? You've changed so much. And no, its not because of Kevin, it started a while ago. You act like most of the times you could care less if im around. You always seem like im the most annoying person thats ever crossed your path and you only want to be my friend when something happens. I know its probably not like that at all..but thats how im feeling right now.
You've been the best best friend I could of asked for, and I really don't want that to end. Im not jealous, beleive me, thats NOT what this is. I just want my best friend back. I want the best friend that laughed and cried with me about the stupidest shit for hours. No one would ever do that with me. I mean come on..who laughs about "purple boys" or fricken pigions!!!??? Is Kevin going to share those memories with you now? Or can't we both?? I have more to say...but if your actually wanting to talk to me...then please do so.
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Well. my Thanksgiving weekend was so so. I was sick on Thanksgiving so while my family went to my Godparents house to have Thanksgiving dinner...I got to say home. But Mark and Dave came over and kept me company.
Friday Kristi and I got into a huge fight. Something that shouldn't of happened and that I feel horrible about. Other than that I went to the mall with Mark and had the funniest time with him.
Good times at the mall with Mark
~At Wilsons Leather Coat store: "hello sir..what are you looking for today?" Mark: "Ummm...A coat."
~Walking in the mall and one of the sales people come up to us. "hey, would you like to tryout a remote control car?" Mark: "No man, I have to eat my pretzel!!"
Later on we watched a movie...Saturday we went to his testing place at 7:30 in the morning then has breakfast at IHOP. After that we went back to my house and fell asleep in my basement till about 1:30. We spent the rest of the day together and got lost out in BFE. Yes...we had some fun. LOL.
Then just went back to my house and ate pizza.
Funny times at my house
~"you still THURR"??
~"Datzcool"!!
~"cheetah girls!!"
Today...hopefully I get things situated between Kristi and I. I really don't want to be in this fight. I want my best friend back. Thats all. Is that so much to ask??:-/
When you're all alone
And you need a light
Someone to guide you
Through the night
Just remember that
I am here
To hold you close and
Dry your tears
Oh, ooh
And just when you thought
You were falling
But you know I'll always
Be right there
When you're all alone
And you need a friend
Someone to help you
To the end
When you need someone
To catch you when you fall
I'll be there through it all
Oh, oh
'Cause just when you thought
You were losing
But you know
I'll always be right there
And I'll be there
Through the good times
And the bad
And we'll be there
For each other
*Cause you're the best friend*
*I've ever had*
And just when you thought
You were falling
But you know
I'll always be right there
whenever you need me
I'll always be right there:(
Look...I know Friday was a big disaster. And I had no reason to freak out at you. I needed to talk to you that day, but I couldn't, Jessica was there. I wanted to explain somethings to you that day, about what was on my mind..and why Im not "being myself." Well, I will tell you now...this is the only way.
I am more than happy that you and Kevin are together. I know thats what you wanted most and I couldn't be more happier for you. But, theres just one thing. Now that you have a b/f, is there room for me?? Your best friend? I remember one time along time ago. You said, "no guy will ever come in between our friendship, no matter who we are going out with, we will always be best friends forever." What happened to that statement?? I thought that we were BOTH going to stick to it? Obviously not.
Kristi, Like I said I couldn't be more happier for you. But does it mean that sense you have Kevin, you have to be with him all the time?? Does it mean that your not allowed to have a best friend? What does it mean?? Because thats how it seems now. What happened to the Kristi i knew a long time ago?? You've changed so much. And no, its not because of Kevin, it started a while ago. You act like most of the times you could care less if im around. You always seem like im the most annoying person thats ever crossed your path and you only want to be my friend when something happens. I know its probably not like that at all..but thats how im feeling right now.
You've been the best best friend I could of asked for, and I really don't want that to end. Im not jealous, beleive me, thats NOT what this is. I just want my best friend back. I want the best friend that laughed and cried with me about the stupidest shit for hours. No one would ever do that with me. I mean come on..who laughs about "purple boys" or fricken pigions!!!??? Is Kevin going to share those memories with you now? Or can't we both?? I have more to say...but if your actually wanting to talk to me...then please do so.
____________________________________________________________________
Well. my Thanksgiving weekend was so so. I was sick on Thanksgiving so while my family went to my Godparents house to have Thanksgiving dinner...I got to say home. But Mark and Dave came over and kept me company.
Friday Kristi and I got into a huge fight. Something that shouldn't of happened and that I feel horrible about. Other than that I went to the mall with Mark and had the funniest time with him.
Good times at the mall with Mark
~At Wilsons Leather Coat store: "hello sir..what are you looking for today?" Mark: "Ummm...A coat."
~Walking in the mall and one of the sales people come up to us. "hey, would you like to tryout a remote control car?" Mark: "No man, I have to eat my pretzel!!"
Later on we watched a movie...Saturday we went to his testing place at 7:30 in the morning then has breakfast at IHOP. After that we went back to my house and fell asleep in my basement till about 1:30. We spent the rest of the day together and got lost out in BFE. Yes...we had some fun. LOL.
Then just went back to my house and ate pizza.
Funny times at my house
~"you still THURR"??
~"Datzcool"!!
~"cheetah girls!!"
Today...hopefully I get things situated between Kristi and I. I really don't want to be in this fight. I want my best friend back. Thats all. Is that so much to ask??:-/
When you're all alone
And you need a light
Someone to guide you
Through the night
Just remember that
I am here
To hold you close and
Dry your tears
Oh, ooh
And just when you thought
You were falling
But you know I'll always
Be right there
When you're all alone
And you need a friend
Someone to help you
To the end
When you need someone
To catch you when you fall
I'll be there through it all
Oh, oh
'Cause just when you thought
You were losing
But you know
I'll always be right there
And I'll be there
Through the good times
And the bad
And we'll be there
For each other
*Cause you're the best friend*
*I've ever had*
And just when you thought
You were falling
But you know
I'll always be right there
whenever you need me
I'll always be right there:(