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[dtj16]

so apparently i cant even post what i'm thinking about on here, or im pretty much terrible..i thought thats what this is for...whatever though... havent been able to say what ive felt for a long time now.. cuz im pretty much not allowed anyways.. *shrugs*

probly wont post anything on here anymore...

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[x_unbreakable_o]

Wow.. I never said that. Sorry I needed to vent to someone.. maybe you shouldnt read my conversations with people.

As far as Jenn goes.. she apparently doesnt know shit about me or my life or who I date or why I date them. I wasnt actively looking either, things happen and its not like its some random guy I just met either.

The only problem I had with your last entry was that its totally public and you're making me sound like some horrible person like everyone else is. Im sorry that I was unhappy and im sorry that I tried telling/showing you that, but nothing changed. Im sorry that I wanted to be happy and to not be this person I've become the last few years. Yes I love you and yes they were amazing but a lot changed the last few years. I dont regret them at all so dont think that either. *sigh* I dont really know what to tell you. You have been able to say how you've felt so dont go there.

Good luck with whatever.

[dtj16]

Caryn... have you looked at most of your entries?.. you make me look like the worst person in the world.. and when i turn around and say one thing you freak out..and no it wasnt in retaliation.. it was because i have tried not talking about it for a really long time, and it just keeps building up.. sorry i needed to vent.. and it isnt like the whole world actually saw it.. im pretty sure only you did..

[dtj16]

nope.. ya were talking to him about it the week BEFORE you dumped me.. :) and even more so the day of..

[x_unbreakable_o]

*sigh* he has nothing to do with this. It was going to happen regardless. Im sorry.

[dtj16]

yeah, but it kinda sucks when ur sitting there telling me that you dont plan to date him anytime soon and a few days later when i ask you say no.. but then you tell me that you have been since the day before you told me u werent, yes thats confusing but thats how it was worded and made sence in my mind.

[x_unbreakable_o]

We werent planning on dating for quite awhile. So that was the truth, sorry.