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So, I am gonna be a sociopath again! And the burnign quetion is, is that better than me smoking. Honestly, for me to return to beiong utterly depressed, beligerent, and self hating, is it worht it? Is it worht the fact that now my day is filled with thought of how long a rope would be for me to kill myself if i jumped out a window? Is it worth me probably destroying every friend ship I ahve with each of you over a period of time were I should be socializing more? Is it worth the crying that I have to do jsut to get to sleep? Is it worth the lonliness I bear through every second of this pitiful existence?
Is it worth me possibly spilling blood for this?
I would like to get someone to explain to me how its worht it. I havent smoked in a week, so, I guess im not gonna start again. I am jsut gonna go antisocial like normal.
Is it worth me possibly spilling blood for this?
I would like to get someone to explain to me how its worht it. I havent smoked in a week, so, I guess im not gonna start again. I am jsut gonna go antisocial like normal.