CA:TWS Hydra Trash Recovery Fic: Lamb and Martyr
This one was written over a the hydratrashmeme for the following prompt (warning: complicated rape recovery):
The Winter Soldier was never allowed to orgasm (and was punished if he did when his handlers used him for sex/he was caught masturbating) except when he was ordered to brutally rape HYDRA prisoners in lieu of conventional torture. As a result, post-CA:TWS, Bucky can only get off in violent non-con scenarios with him as the rapist - which, obviously, he finds horrifying, choosing self-imposed celibacy over the risk of hurting a lover.
Steve finds out and offers to help. Cue hardcore BDSM with Steve pretending to be the Winter Soldier's victim, crying for help and begging him to stop (the more wretched the better - but always consensually, with a safeword). Steve doesn't get off on it, but he wants to help Bucky (and while vanilla sex does nothing for Bucky, maybe he finds it emotionally soothing to be gentle with Steve before/after their roleplaying?).
+1: Someone walks in on them and thinks it's real.
...And because I am not good at the whole idea of kinkmemes, that turned into nearly 40k of exploring how Steve and Bucky would navigate a heavy BDSM component in their sex life that's dragging a lot of emotional baggage behind it. (Spoiler: not with immaculate grace or unfailing good sense, especially at first.)
Many thanks to everyone who cheered this on at the meme and in email, and especially to Ylixia and Medved for beta! Title is from "Prison Sex" by Tool.
Lamb and Martyr (39589 words) by Dira Sudis
Chapters: 5/5
Fandom: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence
Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers
Characters: Steve Rogers, James "Bucky" Barnes, Natasha Romanov
Additional Tags: HYDRA Trash Party, hydratrashmeme, Rape Recovery, Rape Roleplay, Kink Negotiation, Under-negotiated Kink, unsafe kink, Subdrop, Top Drop, Aftercare, Learning curve, They get better, Steve's Sexual Orientation Is Double Dog Dare, Complicated Consent, Sex Toys, Rimming, Hurt/Comfort, Cuddling & Snuggling, BDSM, Not Avengers: Age of Ultron (Movie) Compliant
Summary:
"You could, though," Steve said. "If you were willing to hurt me."
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comments there.
The Winter Soldier was never allowed to orgasm (and was punished if he did when his handlers used him for sex/he was caught masturbating) except when he was ordered to brutally rape HYDRA prisoners in lieu of conventional torture. As a result, post-CA:TWS, Bucky can only get off in violent non-con scenarios with him as the rapist - which, obviously, he finds horrifying, choosing self-imposed celibacy over the risk of hurting a lover.
Steve finds out and offers to help. Cue hardcore BDSM with Steve pretending to be the Winter Soldier's victim, crying for help and begging him to stop (the more wretched the better - but always consensually, with a safeword). Steve doesn't get off on it, but he wants to help Bucky (and while vanilla sex does nothing for Bucky, maybe he finds it emotionally soothing to be gentle with Steve before/after their roleplaying?).
+1: Someone walks in on them and thinks it's real.
...And because I am not good at the whole idea of kinkmemes, that turned into nearly 40k of exploring how Steve and Bucky would navigate a heavy BDSM component in their sex life that's dragging a lot of emotional baggage behind it. (Spoiler: not with immaculate grace or unfailing good sense, especially at first.)
Many thanks to everyone who cheered this on at the meme and in email, and especially to Ylixia and Medved for beta! Title is from "Prison Sex" by Tool.
Lamb and Martyr (39589 words) by Dira Sudis
Chapters: 5/5
Fandom: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence
Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers
Characters: Steve Rogers, James "Bucky" Barnes, Natasha Romanov
Additional Tags: HYDRA Trash Party, hydratrashmeme, Rape Recovery, Rape Roleplay, Kink Negotiation, Under-negotiated Kink, unsafe kink, Subdrop, Top Drop, Aftercare, Learning curve, They get better, Steve's Sexual Orientation Is Double Dog Dare, Complicated Consent, Sex Toys, Rimming, Hurt/Comfort, Cuddling & Snuggling, BDSM, Not Avengers: Age of Ultron (Movie) Compliant
Summary:
"You could, though," Steve said. "If you were willing to hurt me."
This entry was originally posted at http://dira.dreamwidth.org/711355.html. There are currently
comments there.