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so i've been doing this recovery thing now for 6 weeks.
and i must say it is the greatest gift i ahve ever received.
see becuase poeple can have all the same issues as me,
but drugs were not their solution, drugs didn't work for them.
drugs do something to me that they don't do to "normal" people.
I could outdrink 45 year old men because i'm an alcoholic.
because i will blackout and keep on going. this is why i don't drink.
and i live my life on a day to day basis.
just for today i won't pick up that drink or drug.
if you live your life that way it's a little easier than say
FOREVER I CAN'T DRINK OR DRUG, no it's just for today.
tomorrow is not promised.
shit the rest of today isn't promised.
but i know, for right now, i'm doing what i can.
to stay sober, because if i don't stay sober,
my addiction will take over, if i don't do my day to day work.
the disease will eventually kill me.
i have accepted this.
and i have more honest relationships, and more people that CARE
about me and my well being, than I ever have.
I am single, haven't talked to any guys in that type of way, in three weeks.
and that's an accomplishment for me. I could talk to guys, and date them,
and wrap myself in worrying about that relationship, and take the focus
off of myself, and not think about things I need to think about. . . and then
the next thing i know, i'm not going to meetings, and i'm relapsing in my
head. relapse doesn't start with just picking up, relapse starts in your mind,
picking up is the last thing that you do. but anyway, getting involved with
someone really takes the focus off of yourself. I know that getting through
these shitty times, and focusing on myself, is only going to make me stronger.
I am happy and proud of who i am today. I go to meetings everyday, i go
to my outpatient program, i'm a senior in college full-time. i feel alright today.
i feel better today than i did yesterday. I have faith in my high power to lead
me in the right direction. :)
Honest relationships
Page 272
"One of the most profound changes in our lives is in the realm of personal relationships."
Basic Text p.55
Recovery gives many of us relationships that are closer and more intimate than any we've had before. As time passes, we find ourselves gravitating toward those who eventually become our friends, our sponsor, and our partners in life. Shared laughter, tears, and struggles bring shared respect and lasting empathy.
What, then, do we do when we find that we don't agree with our friends on everything? We may discover that we don't share the same taste in music as our dearest friend, or that we don't agree with our spouse about how the furniture should be arranged, or even find ourselves voting differently than our sponsor at a service committee meeting. Does conflict mean that the friendship, the marriage, or the sponsorship is over? No!
These types of conflict are not only to be expected in any long-lasting relationship but are actually an indication that both people are emotionally healthy and honest individuals. In any relationship where both people agree on absolutely everything, chances are that only one person is doing the thinking. If we sacrifice our honesty and integrity to avoid conflicts or disagreements, we give away the best of what we bring to our relationships. We experience the full measure of partnership with another human being when we are fully honest.
I cannot wait to go to this event on september 27th i'm bringing it up to a lot of people that i know in recovery, i'm excited.
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Through our storytelling, we've recognized the profound need to raise awareness that addiction is a chronic but treatable disease that affects more than 22 million people nationwide.*
But, there's hope. As we've seen in the series Intervention, lives can be reclaimed and recovery is possible. A&E is committed to this cause and dedicated to The Recovery Project.
The Recovery Project is a new initiative that confronts the stigma of addiction and unites people in the fight for effective treatment and support against this misunderstood disease. Recovery is possible, and we can all help. So, let's start the next chapter of our story one of hope and lives recovered.
Join The Recovery Project as we stand united, hand-in-hand, on September 27th in New York City and take one step closer to reaching recovery.
and i must say it is the greatest gift i ahve ever received.
see becuase poeple can have all the same issues as me,
but drugs were not their solution, drugs didn't work for them.
drugs do something to me that they don't do to "normal" people.
I could outdrink 45 year old men because i'm an alcoholic.
because i will blackout and keep on going. this is why i don't drink.
and i live my life on a day to day basis.
just for today i won't pick up that drink or drug.
if you live your life that way it's a little easier than say
FOREVER I CAN'T DRINK OR DRUG, no it's just for today.
tomorrow is not promised.
shit the rest of today isn't promised.
but i know, for right now, i'm doing what i can.
to stay sober, because if i don't stay sober,
my addiction will take over, if i don't do my day to day work.
the disease will eventually kill me.
i have accepted this.
and i have more honest relationships, and more people that CARE
about me and my well being, than I ever have.
I am single, haven't talked to any guys in that type of way, in three weeks.
and that's an accomplishment for me. I could talk to guys, and date them,
and wrap myself in worrying about that relationship, and take the focus
off of myself, and not think about things I need to think about. . . and then
the next thing i know, i'm not going to meetings, and i'm relapsing in my
head. relapse doesn't start with just picking up, relapse starts in your mind,
picking up is the last thing that you do. but anyway, getting involved with
someone really takes the focus off of yourself. I know that getting through
these shitty times, and focusing on myself, is only going to make me stronger.
I am happy and proud of who i am today. I go to meetings everyday, i go
to my outpatient program, i'm a senior in college full-time. i feel alright today.
i feel better today than i did yesterday. I have faith in my high power to lead
me in the right direction. :)
Honest relationships
Page 272
"One of the most profound changes in our lives is in the realm of personal relationships."
Basic Text p.55
Recovery gives many of us relationships that are closer and more intimate than any we've had before. As time passes, we find ourselves gravitating toward those who eventually become our friends, our sponsor, and our partners in life. Shared laughter, tears, and struggles bring shared respect and lasting empathy.
What, then, do we do when we find that we don't agree with our friends on everything? We may discover that we don't share the same taste in music as our dearest friend, or that we don't agree with our spouse about how the furniture should be arranged, or even find ourselves voting differently than our sponsor at a service committee meeting. Does conflict mean that the friendship, the marriage, or the sponsorship is over? No!
These types of conflict are not only to be expected in any long-lasting relationship but are actually an indication that both people are emotionally healthy and honest individuals. In any relationship where both people agree on absolutely everything, chances are that only one person is doing the thinking. If we sacrifice our honesty and integrity to avoid conflicts or disagreements, we give away the best of what we bring to our relationships. We experience the full measure of partnership with another human being when we are fully honest.
I cannot wait to go to this event on september 27th i'm bringing it up to a lot of people that i know in recovery, i'm excited.
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Through our storytelling, we've recognized the profound need to raise awareness that addiction is a chronic but treatable disease that affects more than 22 million people nationwide.*
But, there's hope. As we've seen in the series Intervention, lives can be reclaimed and recovery is possible. A&E is committed to this cause and dedicated to The Recovery Project.
The Recovery Project is a new initiative that confronts the stigma of addiction and unites people in the fight for effective treatment and support against this misunderstood disease. Recovery is possible, and we can all help. So, let's start the next chapter of our story one of hope and lives recovered.
Join The Recovery Project as we stand united, hand-in-hand, on September 27th in New York City and take one step closer to reaching recovery.