I hate the last day
My dog is dead and its my fault. i want to fall in a hole and die.
Took her to the vet about her tumour because she spent thursday and thursday night crying and sooking so she was probably in pain and he basically said that there was nothing they could do, the tumour was so large now that if they were to try and cut it out there would not be enough skin left to close the wound up and also because of it's position, all the nerves around her bottom and that area would be damaged so she would most likely be incontinent even if they could operate. Apparently it was also leaking a bit of pus.
She knew. She was carrying her chicken toy around with her everywhere that day, she wouldn't leave the room without it.
But you know she was still so alive and cute and happy. What if she just had a belly ache or something that day.
I can't believe we agreed to have her put down.
I think we totally made the wrong decision. WE MADE A MISTAKE. We should at least have thought about it over the weekend.
God i have never felt so wrong and guilty and depressed in my life.
GOD I AM SO SORRY SASSY.......................
I want my baby girl back
i hate myself so much right now