well hello there big guy
Let's see. Since you left this existance so suddenly, a lot of things have happened. I've never been good at recalling stories though and much prefer to listen to them, so I think we'll just leave it at a lot of things have happened. You've seen them unfold and have guided some of my steps when I maneuver through the landmines and pit falls, so even if my memory was better about things, you would already know how the stories unfold anyway. Makes it all a little pointless really.
I still miss you, every day. Though I didn't have an every day relationship with you in the later years, it was a huge comfort to know that you were in the world, making people smile with your booming laugh and giant personality. Whenever I am challenged or surrounded by negative people, it is that laugh and your genuine goodness that gets me through without becoming one of them. Sometimes that's a struggle, but the runes on my arms are that huge in your face reminder they were meant to be and they makes things easier.
Unfortunately, the days to come this week will be truly tough. Your unplanned exit is always hard on those of us that loved you so much, and the fact that it coincides with another anniversary of loss is even harder. I understand that you needed some great people around you, but I'll never understand why Shakespeare, most of the Ramones, Tupac and Johnny Cash weren't enough to tide you over until the rest of us joined your little party. Guess you needed someone else with a kickass nickname. Still, I like to imagine that 2 of the guys with the biggest hearts I've ever known are hangin out in the ether together somewhere, taking care of each other and the rest of us that are running a little behind. It makes the idea of having to live without you both a little easier on the heart. It is poor enough consolation for us, but since it's all we have..well...I'll hold that image until I join you.
So I guess I'm going to light a couple of candles in front of your pictures and try to care for myself and all the rest of us this week. There will be some tears falling, some laughter booming and some whiskey drunk in your names. It's not enough of an homage, but it's the only way we know to make it through the crushing loss of 2 such fabulous creatures. You give Aaron a hug for me Track and make sure he does the same to you. I was honored to know you both.
Love.
I still miss you, every day. Though I didn't have an every day relationship with you in the later years, it was a huge comfort to know that you were in the world, making people smile with your booming laugh and giant personality. Whenever I am challenged or surrounded by negative people, it is that laugh and your genuine goodness that gets me through without becoming one of them. Sometimes that's a struggle, but the runes on my arms are that huge in your face reminder they were meant to be and they makes things easier.
Unfortunately, the days to come this week will be truly tough. Your unplanned exit is always hard on those of us that loved you so much, and the fact that it coincides with another anniversary of loss is even harder. I understand that you needed some great people around you, but I'll never understand why Shakespeare, most of the Ramones, Tupac and Johnny Cash weren't enough to tide you over until the rest of us joined your little party. Guess you needed someone else with a kickass nickname. Still, I like to imagine that 2 of the guys with the biggest hearts I've ever known are hangin out in the ether together somewhere, taking care of each other and the rest of us that are running a little behind. It makes the idea of having to live without you both a little easier on the heart. It is poor enough consolation for us, but since it's all we have..well...I'll hold that image until I join you.
So I guess I'm going to light a couple of candles in front of your pictures and try to care for myself and all the rest of us this week. There will be some tears falling, some laughter booming and some whiskey drunk in your names. It's not enough of an homage, but it's the only way we know to make it through the crushing loss of 2 such fabulous creatures. You give Aaron a hug for me Track and make sure he does the same to you. I was honored to know you both.
Love.