update
i seem to have very little time. monday is the only time that i feel i can just sit. i am hopefully going to do well in school. it would be nice to get on the deans list or atleast bring up my gpa. jeff and i are both trying to get on the deans list. i am not sure if that is a hard goal or not, but i will try my best. i know i will need to study. my laziness catches up with me though. i know i have to want this for myself and not just for jeffrey. sometimes all i feel like doing is sitting and doing nothing. i feel bad about this because i want to have goals and motivation for jeff. he seems to know where he is going and know what he wants to do while i am terrified of the future. when i actually do something that puts me a step more towards independance i feel proud of myself... but i seem to keep dragging my feet and i don't know why.
my job keeps me pretty busy in supplement with going to class. i mean i don't have to work weekends, but i am always busy with jeffrey which is completely sublime! :) everything is going great with jeff and me which makes me very happy. he is so wonderful and is there for me 100%. he really understands me better than anyone ever has before and i feel very fortunate. even typing that out almost brought tears to my eyes. i just have such strong feelings for him. its crazy. even after we've been dating for almost 5 months i still get excited when he first walks through the door, butterflies and all and when he kisses me i swear i'm dreaming.
my job keeps me pretty busy in supplement with going to class. i mean i don't have to work weekends, but i am always busy with jeffrey which is completely sublime! :) everything is going great with jeff and me which makes me very happy. he is so wonderful and is there for me 100%. he really understands me better than anyone ever has before and i feel very fortunate. even typing that out almost brought tears to my eyes. i just have such strong feelings for him. its crazy. even after we've been dating for almost 5 months i still get excited when he first walks through the door, butterflies and all and when he kisses me i swear i'm dreaming.