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Ok this is why I should not drink so much. This is all news I found out yesterday. I don't remember it so its all being told now as I have put it together from other sources.
First my version of the night in question:
Went to the bar with Sayers Derek and Mike. After closeing we went back to Tony's and I sat on the porch smoked and waited for everyone that had to go inside to pee. Then we went home.
The real version as explained to me by Neil and Sayers yesterday:
Went to bar with Derek Sayers Mike AND BEAN. Came back MIKE and BEAN waited on the porch for the rest of us while DEREK went to the store with Tony and SAYERS and I were inside. (seeing the subtle differences already?) While inside Sayers and I start to converse about life. I am telling him how my life is over and I fucked up the girls in my life and I'll never love someone as much as I loved Brooke/Meghan....
Side Note:
Now there is a slash there because I've gotten conflicting reports as to which on I was fawning over. I myself don't know which one it would be. However I do belive chances are it was Brooke. Neil told me Meghan, and while I do miss her its not as much as I miss Brooke the reasons for that are not even understood by me.
....I keep going on about how much I love HER and I will never get someone as good as her. Again none of this rings a bell for me even as I type it all out. He comforts me in good Sayers fashion and tells me its going to be ok and how bad which ever girl we were talking about was for me. Who knows the reason I did this. Granted it was just after the time when I was really depressed but that whole night I was in the best of moods. I even asked Molly to come inside and fuck when she drove us home(she respectfully declined).
Anywho when first told this I didn't buy it but the evidence is adding up in support of it now:
1. Neil telling me about it out of no where yesterday
2. Sayers confirming the story and filling in a few more holes
3. My cell phone was left IN Tonys house that night
Thats all I really got but its enough to convince me.
Thats all for now