Work sucks, I know.
God I wish I could get out of this fucking job. I'm worried. Sometimes I feel like I could quit tomorrow and start my business but everytime I sit down to do the work I just freeze up. I'm not a freely creative person. I can't just make shit up out of my head. I need direction, a purpose. I need someone to say this is what I want, make it happen. I thought web design would be easy. I can figure anything out, but when someone says build me a photography site I don't know where to begin. School seems like a waste of time, teaching me useless skills I already know or skills I'll never use. Everything seems like a waste of time right now. Can't I just go to sleep, and wake up 10 years from now. Marija and I with our careers, our house and happy. Not that I'm unhappy, don't get me wrong. I'm just tired of always working for somthing that never comes.
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