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So i got in a car accident. And sometimes i wonder how and what god is thinking. I really do. And event though i hate admitting that its true. And even though it makes me so mad at God...at the same time it brings me closer becuase its almost like everything around me is saying "you dont even know...you cant see the big picture nicole" and i know its right. im one of those girls that fluctuates between feeling sorry for myself and feeling sorry for the starving children in africa...theres no in between. why cant i just be content? it seems like right when i start to find that place of contentment it gets torn away. it seems the more i give of myself and try to be a nice person, the more i get used. i dont know what to think or what to feel or how to act. im lost and i need to find my way back to the only way who will walk beside me for eternity. i just need to hold His hand and know he'll never leave my side.