avocado shakes
i wonder if i'll ever stop talking about seasons changing. cycles are very prominent to me. watching people fall into habits, listening to long songs on repeat, water shaping earth, clothes that fall in piles. colors that match. catching my breath at the same surprises that are new every time they get me.
i took a fall the other day and reminded myself of my height. looking up i noticed the ceiling of my workplace like i've never noticed before. i try to peer around corners. see everything there is to see every time there is time for looking. immersing myself in senses, hungry for everything.
i know this, i'm beside myself with worry about taking. what does anyone deserve to take?
i keep this glove whose other i've lost, to help myself remember that things have lives just like me. i wonder at all the places the glove has been. twins separated at birth.
i am the coal tender.
i keep the fire.
i want to.
it's been so long since i've been able to think.
ashley, ashley, ashley, where have i gone?
i took a fall the other day and reminded myself of my height. looking up i noticed the ceiling of my workplace like i've never noticed before. i try to peer around corners. see everything there is to see every time there is time for looking. immersing myself in senses, hungry for everything.
i know this, i'm beside myself with worry about taking. what does anyone deserve to take?
i keep this glove whose other i've lost, to help myself remember that things have lives just like me. i wonder at all the places the glove has been. twins separated at birth.
i am the coal tender.
i keep the fire.
i want to.
it's been so long since i've been able to think.
ashley, ashley, ashley, where have i gone?