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So yeah, I can't sleep. Too many things going through my head right now, its the end of the year, two more days and two more finals till I'm done! I've got to think about what to do about these exams. One should be okay, one is probably going to be horrible. I have been to class twice since Spring break. Horrible, horrible idea, but eh, I would have probably just spent my time in class sleeping, dazed out, or doodling. So yeah, tomorrow I want to do a lot, which includes running, eating, and studying. Those three things are all I want to do, they are all I must do. The gym is closed this week so I figure running is a decent substitute. I am finally over my ridiculious illness, so I feel like I can do anything, I went to the gym for like a week and a half though, then it closed =(
Anyway, I was trying to sleep before, but that wasn't working out so well. My mind is wandering like crazy from one thing to another, and it's very hard to fall asleep when you are constantly thinking about things. It happens quite often. I find that it usually helps ease my mind to write down my thoughts, so that is what I am going to do. Though, not to the full extent of what I normally do because I usually write just about anything and everything, but being that this is the 'online' journal, it shall have to be censored. Moving on, I was thinking about why people do certain things and why they don't do them. Particularly when someone doesn't do something they know is right. I can find so many examples in myself, I think everyone can. Little things, big things, all types of things, whether it's sticking to a diet or studying for a big test. And moreover, I really don't like when people complain about things they have the power to change. That seems totally preposterous to me. If one has the power to make a change for the better, than DO IT! I think a lot of people complain because they are looking for help from other people to step in and do something for them because they feel they are too weak to make such changes themselves. I also believe that when someone does this and is obliged by another to help, they take away the real satisfaction of accomplishment. I think this can lead to dependency on others and the incapability of helping yourself. Now, this is separate, but is also related to not doing something you know is right. I was kinda just going off on dependency there for a second, but it is related.
Yeah, I am also really tired, so I don't feel like relating the two together right now, so I'll just go on with what I was going to say. Yes, not doing something you know is right. I think laziness or insincerity to oneself is very interesting. No matter how much you want to do something, and set your mind to do something, there is always those moments when you think twice, and are challenged by obstacles. Around every corner you have to make the choice, so not only the first time you set your mind to do it, but you actually have to make that choice over and over again. That is where most people get caught. Most people think that, "Of, if I do this thing correct now, I can slack off later" I am a victim of it too, especially with working out, eating, or even mackin it with ladies. =D Its often difficult to stay on track with these things, and it bothers me whenever I see myself, or someone else getting off track through whatever obstacles lay in the way. I guess the message for the day is to just suck it up and do it, because you only live once, and you really can't afford to fuck things up.
Anyway, I was trying to sleep before, but that wasn't working out so well. My mind is wandering like crazy from one thing to another, and it's very hard to fall asleep when you are constantly thinking about things. It happens quite often. I find that it usually helps ease my mind to write down my thoughts, so that is what I am going to do. Though, not to the full extent of what I normally do because I usually write just about anything and everything, but being that this is the 'online' journal, it shall have to be censored. Moving on, I was thinking about why people do certain things and why they don't do them. Particularly when someone doesn't do something they know is right. I can find so many examples in myself, I think everyone can. Little things, big things, all types of things, whether it's sticking to a diet or studying for a big test. And moreover, I really don't like when people complain about things they have the power to change. That seems totally preposterous to me. If one has the power to make a change for the better, than DO IT! I think a lot of people complain because they are looking for help from other people to step in and do something for them because they feel they are too weak to make such changes themselves. I also believe that when someone does this and is obliged by another to help, they take away the real satisfaction of accomplishment. I think this can lead to dependency on others and the incapability of helping yourself. Now, this is separate, but is also related to not doing something you know is right. I was kinda just going off on dependency there for a second, but it is related.
Yeah, I am also really tired, so I don't feel like relating the two together right now, so I'll just go on with what I was going to say. Yes, not doing something you know is right. I think laziness or insincerity to oneself is very interesting. No matter how much you want to do something, and set your mind to do something, there is always those moments when you think twice, and are challenged by obstacles. Around every corner you have to make the choice, so not only the first time you set your mind to do it, but you actually have to make that choice over and over again. That is where most people get caught. Most people think that, "Of, if I do this thing correct now, I can slack off later" I am a victim of it too, especially with working out, eating, or even mackin it with ladies. =D Its often difficult to stay on track with these things, and it bothers me whenever I see myself, or someone else getting off track through whatever obstacles lay in the way. I guess the message for the day is to just suck it up and do it, because you only live once, and you really can't afford to fuck things up.