Feb 20, 2005 02:05
I've walked these streets
a virtual stage
it seemed to me
make up on their faces
actors took their
places next to me
I've walked these streets
in a carnival
of sights to see
all the cheap thrill seekers
the vendors & the dealers
they crowded around me
have I been blind
have I been lost
inside myself and
my own mind
hypnotized
mesmerized
by what my eyes have seen?
I've walked these streets
In a spectacle of wealth & poverty
in the diamond markets
the scarlet welcome carpet
that they just rolled out for me
I've walked these streets
in the mad house asylum
they can be
where a wild eyed misfit prophet
on a traffic island stopped
and he raved of saving me
have I been blind
have I been lost
inside myself and
my own mind
hypnotized
mesmerized
by what my eyes have seen?
have I been wrong
have I been wise
to shut my eyes
and play along
hypnotized
paralyzed
by what my eyes have found?
by what my eyes have seen
what they have seen?
have I been blind
have I been lost
have I been wrong
have I been wise
have I been strong
have I been
hypnotized
mesmerized
by what my eyes have found
in that great street carnival
in that carnival?
I was driving home from Columbus tonight, when this song came on the radio. Suddenly I got this feeling that I was in the right place. I'm going the right way. I'm on the right path. I'm taking a break from smoking weed, and I'm absolutely serious this time. My head is in need of some cleaning. It's imperative that I finish my fasfa and college forms this week. I've been holding things off for so long that they don't even make sense anymore. Outside of the home, I'm looking for new employment. I want to be a maid. I enjoy cleaning, much more than any sane person should. It kind of...clears my mind, you know? Keeping my hands busy, keeps my mind at ease. I've got a lot of updating to do. In 30 days time, I was thrown for a complete fucking loop. A good loop, but still a loop. I haven't opened my notebook in 30 days. Haven't written a single word. Things are starting to build up...either they'll burst and go all over the place or dry and die out. I'm praying for a flood.