its been a year today
haven't updated this thing in ages, thought i did for a while and found that it must not have taken to a post when i made an entry, and then got sidetracked or just apathetic about trying to update this for awhile. figured since i have a chance i might as well write about my life goings-on.
Today is actually a pretty special day for me, today marks exactly 1 year of having my love in my life April. Weird how we ended up together after not really being similar in high school, middle school and all, and just never really getting along until we were brought together by chance happening with a mutual friend.
I am glad i have her and her love, and it is the first time in many many years i truly feel important to the person I'm with, and like the person thinks I'm worth the trouble to be with.
I am and have been happy as a whole in the entire year I've been with April. We've had our ups and downs, but through and through, we've come to be still lovers, and i can see in her eyes, she loves me how i want to be loved, and i honestly love her with every ounce of what i have. There are a few people who aren't so sure of my choice in her, even close friends, and i know they think the way they do because they want me not settling for less than i should have in a woman, but i want them to know I'm really happy. of all the small things here and there that her and i have had crappy in our relationship this far, none of it really caused me to truly lose faith in what i invested in it all with her, regardless of how i showed it to those i discussed it with, in the end, i know i would have hated myself and regretted sticking it out and keeping with her if i had decided to give up on her in the hard times.
I doubt she even knows i keep this journal, as i really have only pointed out my myspace page to her, but i would love her to know a few things that make her worth while that no matter how many different ways i could say them to her, never quite serve justice to my feelings...
April absorbs me and absorbs my time, and i love it, because the small specks of me that she soaks up help me to fill in completely as who i want to be, and what i don't get from any other person i know, at least not completely in one hot little wonderful package. i get the snide remarks to keep me in check, the hot girl, the loving head over heels girl who knows what to say, how to say it and when to say it that keeps me latched onto her love. she is the girl i want to tell all my secrets to, but who makes me blush inside that i can't get the words to come out to. she seems to read my thoughts when i didn't even know i was thinking them or didn't know what i mean myself, and she doesn't even need to get all touchy-feely and talk for hours to do it. she can be a total bitch to my face, yet make me fall even deeper into giving in and submitting, yet prevent me from doing so and sticking up for me, selfless to her needs in the end.
i love her hate of my music, and her not wanting to smother me, her wanting to pay, but letting me trick her into letting me anyway half the time. I love her cute little smile and her quirky habits. she can cold yet hot and so make me stay perfectly warm inside, and she can make something out of nothing, and worry big about the little things, yet in the end everything with her evens out to provide me just the right about of it all.
i haven't loved and doubt i ever will love any girl as much save her future self, and i have the brightest future knowing it.
April, here's to the best year so far, and a toast to each year with you that will be better to come. you may not love my music, or understand it, but you sure sing in key to my tune.
Today is actually a pretty special day for me, today marks exactly 1 year of having my love in my life April. Weird how we ended up together after not really being similar in high school, middle school and all, and just never really getting along until we were brought together by chance happening with a mutual friend.
I am glad i have her and her love, and it is the first time in many many years i truly feel important to the person I'm with, and like the person thinks I'm worth the trouble to be with.
I am and have been happy as a whole in the entire year I've been with April. We've had our ups and downs, but through and through, we've come to be still lovers, and i can see in her eyes, she loves me how i want to be loved, and i honestly love her with every ounce of what i have. There are a few people who aren't so sure of my choice in her, even close friends, and i know they think the way they do because they want me not settling for less than i should have in a woman, but i want them to know I'm really happy. of all the small things here and there that her and i have had crappy in our relationship this far, none of it really caused me to truly lose faith in what i invested in it all with her, regardless of how i showed it to those i discussed it with, in the end, i know i would have hated myself and regretted sticking it out and keeping with her if i had decided to give up on her in the hard times.
I doubt she even knows i keep this journal, as i really have only pointed out my myspace page to her, but i would love her to know a few things that make her worth while that no matter how many different ways i could say them to her, never quite serve justice to my feelings...
April absorbs me and absorbs my time, and i love it, because the small specks of me that she soaks up help me to fill in completely as who i want to be, and what i don't get from any other person i know, at least not completely in one hot little wonderful package. i get the snide remarks to keep me in check, the hot girl, the loving head over heels girl who knows what to say, how to say it and when to say it that keeps me latched onto her love. she is the girl i want to tell all my secrets to, but who makes me blush inside that i can't get the words to come out to. she seems to read my thoughts when i didn't even know i was thinking them or didn't know what i mean myself, and she doesn't even need to get all touchy-feely and talk for hours to do it. she can be a total bitch to my face, yet make me fall even deeper into giving in and submitting, yet prevent me from doing so and sticking up for me, selfless to her needs in the end.
i love her hate of my music, and her not wanting to smother me, her wanting to pay, but letting me trick her into letting me anyway half the time. I love her cute little smile and her quirky habits. she can cold yet hot and so make me stay perfectly warm inside, and she can make something out of nothing, and worry big about the little things, yet in the end everything with her evens out to provide me just the right about of it all.
i haven't loved and doubt i ever will love any girl as much save her future self, and i have the brightest future knowing it.
April, here's to the best year so far, and a toast to each year with you that will be better to come. you may not love my music, or understand it, but you sure sing in key to my tune.