Feelings that drown out the pain...
I've been swept away for the past few months, swept from my boring and dull life with an energy that I didn't see coming. I tried for a while to act like I could run from it- love someone else in place and grow fond of them instead of being pulled downstream in the current. But to no avail.
I have been, am, and will continue to be in love with one special girl. No typical girl in the least. She asks sometimes what makes her so special to guys- but I can't come up with the answer she seeks.
I know why she is special and like no other to me, but i can't speak for others, people see different things in different people- so it is unlikely i see the same out of her as any other guy might.
I just know that I love her - and I can't stop. I have tried to push her away - push the feelings away because it would just make it easier that way- not being afraid of such strong feelings, but I can't win. I slip deeper and deeper each day. So i spend my days with her- loving secretly, knowing myself, but never getting to be close to the one thing I wish to have in my life.
I wait for one word to escape from her lips to set end my wait- but the word never comes. I continue to wait, hoping, feeling, knowing, someday perhaps,
may I see it?!
I have been, am, and will continue to be in love with one special girl. No typical girl in the least. She asks sometimes what makes her so special to guys- but I can't come up with the answer she seeks.
I know why she is special and like no other to me, but i can't speak for others, people see different things in different people- so it is unlikely i see the same out of her as any other guy might.
I just know that I love her - and I can't stop. I have tried to push her away - push the feelings away because it would just make it easier that way- not being afraid of such strong feelings, but I can't win. I slip deeper and deeper each day. So i spend my days with her- loving secretly, knowing myself, but never getting to be close to the one thing I wish to have in my life.
I wait for one word to escape from her lips to set end my wait- but the word never comes. I continue to wait, hoping, feeling, knowing, someday perhaps,
may I see it?!