for the people that know me,,,,
for the people that know me.... or think they know me -
for like the last year in the back of my mind ive had this overwhelming feeling that i just want to die. i know on the outside i make it show that im like fun loving goofy mike, but deep down inside i have no real will to live. im going to california in august with my mom and since im 18, i might just stay there. i need to get away from everything or i just need to die i havnt figured it out yet. i wanted to go to fsu so badly but now i just dont know about anything anymore. as i sit here an type this the want to die just grows and grows and i wish someone would just come blow my head off because i know i could do suicide just because i dont believe in it. *nostalgia sets in* this is so hard. but i cant even count 20 fucking people that would be sad if i stayed, i think i got to like 15. i cant take this life anymore. grams gone for a week and i have the house to myself you think id be happy but i just want to leave and just die and not have to trouble people with my shit. everyone would be so much better off without me in their lives.
whatever, im rambling and its like almost 1 in the a.m. and im shutting up now.
for like the last year in the back of my mind ive had this overwhelming feeling that i just want to die. i know on the outside i make it show that im like fun loving goofy mike, but deep down inside i have no real will to live. im going to california in august with my mom and since im 18, i might just stay there. i need to get away from everything or i just need to die i havnt figured it out yet. i wanted to go to fsu so badly but now i just dont know about anything anymore. as i sit here an type this the want to die just grows and grows and i wish someone would just come blow my head off because i know i could do suicide just because i dont believe in it. *nostalgia sets in* this is so hard. but i cant even count 20 fucking people that would be sad if i stayed, i think i got to like 15. i cant take this life anymore. grams gone for a week and i have the house to myself you think id be happy but i just want to leave and just die and not have to trouble people with my shit. everyone would be so much better off without me in their lives.
whatever, im rambling and its like almost 1 in the a.m. and im shutting up now.