I'm In Fucking California..... Holy Crap!
So yeah… I come to you now from Los Angeles, California….. and from a computer in the library since my own computer will not arrive until Friday. Seriously…. Not having a computer for a week…. It sucks hardcore. Also…. Not having like any stuff for a week too…. Also sucks hardcore. I don’t have sheets or towels either since I shipped them like an idiot instead of packing them in my suitcase. Yeah… I’m fucking roughing it. So…. The library closes in about an hour…… so I’ll write up what I get to and finish it at a later date…. probably tomorrow…. And then maybe the next day.
So I’ll start with my last day of work. Both the good and the bad. First off… the really shitty…. Get it out of the way. Blair sucks. Fuck Blair Cote in the ass….. I am so sick of his stupid bullshit. All day he was just a fucking ass to me. I mean…. I’d be doing whatever and he’d just come up to me and jump in having no idea what I was talking about and just yell at me and telling me not to do it.
One point….. I was having Alanna trained in the service desk as well as Ben. Ben’s almost set and Alanna’s brad new. At the moment Alanna was in the desk and Ben was out front. I went up to Ben and asked how much more training he needed…. because he was first priority over Alanna…. I want him trained the most right now. Well…. Blair just jumps in and says Alanna’s in there…. I don’t want them both in there…. makes Ben go do something while he looks all irritated and pissed at me. First….. fuck you Blair…. I was talking to Ben…. not you. I wanted Ben in there before Alanna if he needed a little more training to be ready… that was what I asked for.
Then… earlier…. Matt Leone is covering selfscan…. Blair just yells Matt for him to follow. Matt looks at me… I tell Matt to tell him that he’s doing selfscan. Matt does and Blair just looks over at me across the front end… and yells at me…. tells me to cover selfscan. I mean…. WTF?! How rude can you be….. he could ask me to borrow Matt…. ask if someone else can cover… ask to borrow someone…. but no…. almighty Blair just fucking yells at people and orders them to do whatever he wants. He’s just so rude and so full of himself… like he can tell anyone to do anything. I mean… sure… it’s his job… but you know what makes other mangers good and him a fucking ass….. others are nice about it. Linda comes up to me and asks who she can borrow. We figure it out. Blair just assumes everyone is stupid and tells them to do whatever…. and most of the time he doesn’t have a fucking clue what’s going on. I mean.. he knows nothing about the front end. Nothing…. ordering me around like he has a clue…. fuck him. I am so glad not to have to be around his stupid ass of a self. I hope he’s gone when I get back for Christmas….. Linda for Store Manager Baby!!!!
Okay…. also sucky…. Linita. I don’t like her to begin with. So Laurel’s training Alanna when Laurel has to leave. Linita gets in and we’re like… you can train with Linita now that Laurel has to go. Linita just starts right off….. “was anyone going to ask me?” Fuck you bitch…. no. You are not a manager… you are no in charge….. actually I am in charge of the service desk and not you you stupid cunt. But yeah… she was going to throw a hissy fit because it was going to be busy and she didn’t want to…. fuck her too. Seriously…. training people is part of her job if we need her to do it. Just fucking do it and don’t whine like a bitch about it. Aaargghhh!
So…. beyond that….. the day was awesome…. also a major hugfest…. I mean I got to hug like everybody… it as crazy. Right when I came in I hugged Joan and told her that it was my last day…. and she all jokingly said that’s fine but I better not go around hugging the boys. As soon as she finished saying this… Adam came running up to me for a mad goodbye hug….. it was hysterical… the look on Joan’s face. Yeah… I hugged guys and girls all day long…. it’s what I do. Plus I got to say goodbye to so many people…. Faye, Adam, Laurel, Sam, Lauren, Ben M., Ben B., Matt L., Kyle D., Alanna, PK, Chris M, Alex Grotevant (I always right out his whole name….. not sure why…. I think I just like the way it looks and the way it sounds….. it makes me all mushy), Eric, Nick Storer, Holly… and then people that should’ve been there were not… Rob and Fawn called in sick so I didn’t get to see them. It was just so awesome. I even practically ran outside the store and left in the middle of bagging to give Gwendolyn a big hug… she all didn’t know it was my last day she said otherwise she would’ve found me to hug me…. she loves me. She talks to my parents all the time about how she misses not having me on the front…. it’s kinda odd…. we’re not in the same department and all… but she’s awesome.
My brother picked me up and as we were headed out to the car was when Lauren came back with Adam, Ben, and Jared…. and Lauren came running up to hug me and then Adam… and then why not… I totally hugged Ben too… it was my last day and fuck why not. My brother was so amused…. afterwards he was all… what is wrong with you. But God…. I’m just gonna miss that place so much. I love so many awesome people there… some also going back to school too…. but still… a lot staying. It’s like become a second family to me and now I’m all emo… not in a bad way…. but in the I’m grinning madly…… so grateful for having met everyone there. God I love that place so much.
And yeah… Alanna made little notes in the service desk about how Laurel and I were the best… it was so sweet. I really like her… I don’t think anyone gives her the credit she deserves. She will work hard if you ask her to…. just most of the CDH’s assume she’ll be lazy…. never ask her to do anything… so she just sits there and doesn’t do anything…. it’s a waste. I really hope she’ll be in the service desk… I think she’ll do good there.
And my favorite last story of work. Alex Grotevant had just punched out and gone to get his paycheck. He was leaving afterwards and I was going to say goodbye if he didn’t. I was auditing his register… but he came up to me himself and thanked me for all I did for him this summer. I was just so touched and so a pile of goo…. just oh God. I can’t say enough how much he is just the sweetest most perfect kid in the world. I mean….. just wow… for a fifteen year old too…. that’s impressive… most kids just whatever at things….. but he was polite and appreciative enough to make a point of thanking me and saying goodbye. Yeah… I’m still totally in love with that kid… he’s just a level of sweetness I’m not used to.
Also… one last crazy customer story. So yeah…. I ring up a woman… she sees my bracelet and grabs my wrist and holds on tight and shakes it while she tells me how much she loves my bracelet. Good God what the fuck…. why are you touching me. I don’t understand how people can think that just grabbing people they don’t know is okay. As a cashier there is a very solid border between my side of the register and the customer’s and they should not be able to cross it. When they do it’s just such an invasion of space… just no. Bad.
So yeah….. after work I went out drinking with my bro.. and my parents showed up for a bit…. I pounded down the fruity martinis… like 4 of them… and then some beer….. so when I got home… and still hadn’t packed…. I was pretty intoxicated. It might explain why I so failed at packing necessary stuff in my suitcase… thought I think I would’ve forgotten that anyway just because I worked the two days before leaving and it was rushed anyway. And that was that… time to move.
So yeah… the trip to LA was long… if not that eventful. Bus ride up from the bridge into Boston was willed with a cute boy. Every time I’ve taken the bus from the bridge into Boston… there has been a cute boy getting on with me…. so strange… and this day was no exception… he got off with his parents at the bus station though.
The flight….. it was called baby flight. Two newborns and like 7 toddlers. They were all just so so cute. I was all… oh God… I want babies…. goddamn it I’m a woman. But oh… they were just so cute. Lauren and Sam have rubbed off on me….. getting me to always look at the babies in my store. Now I’m all baby crazy. But seriously…. babies are just so so cute.
I got into Philadelphia for my connector… picked up a sandwich… got on board with one set of 2 toddlers that had been on my first set… a real nice Latino family. It was the first time flying for the two toddler boys.. and they were right behind me on the first flight…they did real well and were all excited and stuff… it was cool. Flight to LA was early… holy shit… an early flight. Got in about 5 PM. But that was 8 PM eastern time…. so I’d already been traveling for 12 hours…. which is a long day. I got my luggage and headed out to shuttles that take one down around LA…. for only $13 too. Not bad.. better than a taxi. I had to wait like 40 minutes though because the people were all confused about which shuttle to put me on… it was sad…. but I got to the school. Got to the check in for my dorm room….. I could only check in if I had an ID card… so I had to go across campus to get that and then come back to check in and finally move in.
So… my apartment…. really pretty nice…. two bedrooms, a kitchen, a bathroom with a separate room within it for the toilet, and a living room. Very nice. Two beds in each bedroom. It was pretty nice…. felt good sized even if it was small…. still spacious enough. My room had one side occupied… but no one in it. He had moved in early but was spending the last few days with his father I would find out later. The other room was empty. So I got the place to myself for the night… which was nice…. I was tired and needed some major sleep.
I unpacked and realized the horror of oh God….. no sheets or towels… fuck. So yeah… there was roughing it. At least I had a pillow….. which helped immensely even if it still feels uncomfortable. Also a fan…. which is very necessary for my sleeping. Also…. another failure… I had packed books I had already read instead of the new ones I wanted to read….. which sucks… but I still had one book that I was reading that was new and the conclusion of a 7 book series by Weis and Hickman. But I finished that yesterday… so now I’m reading a book I’ve already read… which turns out to be scarily appropriate…. but I’ll get to that later.
Anyway… Saturday was orientation. I got to meet some of the faculty I’d been e-mailing and talking to finally. They were all… so you’re the famous Jason. I was like… oh fuck…. I’m already famous…. this can’t be good. But most of it had to do with the fact that I’m just from real far away and was having all of the difficulty of getting things done from so far away. I met the other first year masters students in theology. It was cool… most of them are older…. 30’s and 40’s. But hell I fit into that crowd better than I do with my own age… so it was all cool. They were all pretty nice too.
Then came the general orientation. I got singled out in it too. Before it started I was talking with one of my fellow theo grad students…. a large black man who was from DC area and had gone to school in Boston. We were lamenting good seafood. It does not exist out here…. which I already knew. So he was talking about Maryland and crabcakes when the dean of students overheard and came over to talk to him because she was from the DC area originally too. Well…. yeah… she saw my rings. She asked about the Lion ring (Loyola Marymount is the Lions) and if I got it because I was coming here. I told her it was pure coincidence and she thought that was cool.
So yeah… during her welcome speech she all was like today I met a student who had a lion ring before he knew he was even coming here like all of this is meant to be or something like that and she pointed to me too. I was all… oh God. I hate being singled out like that sometimes. I would’ve gladly shown off my ring…. but you can’t see it from a distance. It was amusing though. All my fellow theo students asked about it after at lunch and got to admire it.
After that I went back and got to meet my roommates. First…. the guy that actually rooms with me… Marc. First….. totally not attractive. I mean.. he’s an athlete… lacrosse…. so nice body…. but his face is just freaky to me… total turnoff…. all of which is good…. makes things easier if also a bit of a disappointment. Anyway… he’s from New Jersey…. which is nice… a fellow east coaster. He seems nice…. but he’s a bit weird…. to typical frat and sports guy that seems to have nothing more to him…. we will probably have like nothing in common. Also... he’s a sophomore.
Second roommate I met, Chris, moved in with his friends and one of his friend’s bother. Yeah… the brother was fucking hot as fuck…. all skater punk looking… with the longer hair…. I wanted him so bad. Well… Chris is also hot. Has an amazing body… one of the typed that works out 7 days a week and is amazingly muscled but not so much that it’s repulsive. He’s got a nice face too….. not really hot….. but inoffensive enough that his body is all I need to look at. He also seems like completely nothing to talk to about. He’s spent most of his time at his friend’s house anyway.
Final roommate….. Adam…. yeah… I love this guy. Totally love him. First off… he runs track and field for the school…. so yeah his body is just lithe and perfect. Second… his job to help pay for school besides his athletic scholarships is MC at all of the masses. Fuck yes… we can bitch about liturgy stuff too. Also…. he’s into sports which we can talk about too. I rather like him. He’s just so easy to talk to… so talkative and fun. And just the way he talks…. it’s so nice and enjoyable. I wish I was rooming with him…. but living with him is cool enough.
Of course all three of them are straight… that much has already been made clear. So now….. as I mentioned earlier…. about the book I was reading that was appropriate… it comes into play. The book is really bad…. horribly poorly written and edited…. but I read it as a teenager and it’s about two gay teens who fall in love and have a disastrous coming out. Well….. since much of the drama revolves around the problems of being in the closet and whether or not to come out and why they can’t and how hellish it is when they do (takes place in 1980)….. now I’m back in that dilemma. For three years I’ve been completely out. Now….. I’m all back to wondering about whether or not the closet is better for me. It sucks. A lot. Right now it’s about closing time for the library… so I’m gonna leave it at that. I have many thoughts on this subject and I’ll get into it next time plus other stuff.
So for now…. later all.
So I’ll start with my last day of work. Both the good and the bad. First off… the really shitty…. Get it out of the way. Blair sucks. Fuck Blair Cote in the ass….. I am so sick of his stupid bullshit. All day he was just a fucking ass to me. I mean…. I’d be doing whatever and he’d just come up to me and jump in having no idea what I was talking about and just yell at me and telling me not to do it.
One point….. I was having Alanna trained in the service desk as well as Ben. Ben’s almost set and Alanna’s brad new. At the moment Alanna was in the desk and Ben was out front. I went up to Ben and asked how much more training he needed…. because he was first priority over Alanna…. I want him trained the most right now. Well…. Blair just jumps in and says Alanna’s in there…. I don’t want them both in there…. makes Ben go do something while he looks all irritated and pissed at me. First….. fuck you Blair…. I was talking to Ben…. not you. I wanted Ben in there before Alanna if he needed a little more training to be ready… that was what I asked for.
Then… earlier…. Matt Leone is covering selfscan…. Blair just yells Matt for him to follow. Matt looks at me… I tell Matt to tell him that he’s doing selfscan. Matt does and Blair just looks over at me across the front end… and yells at me…. tells me to cover selfscan. I mean…. WTF?! How rude can you be….. he could ask me to borrow Matt…. ask if someone else can cover… ask to borrow someone…. but no…. almighty Blair just fucking yells at people and orders them to do whatever he wants. He’s just so rude and so full of himself… like he can tell anyone to do anything. I mean… sure… it’s his job… but you know what makes other mangers good and him a fucking ass….. others are nice about it. Linda comes up to me and asks who she can borrow. We figure it out. Blair just assumes everyone is stupid and tells them to do whatever…. and most of the time he doesn’t have a fucking clue what’s going on. I mean.. he knows nothing about the front end. Nothing…. ordering me around like he has a clue…. fuck him. I am so glad not to have to be around his stupid ass of a self. I hope he’s gone when I get back for Christmas….. Linda for Store Manager Baby!!!!
Okay…. also sucky…. Linita. I don’t like her to begin with. So Laurel’s training Alanna when Laurel has to leave. Linita gets in and we’re like… you can train with Linita now that Laurel has to go. Linita just starts right off….. “was anyone going to ask me?” Fuck you bitch…. no. You are not a manager… you are no in charge….. actually I am in charge of the service desk and not you you stupid cunt. But yeah… she was going to throw a hissy fit because it was going to be busy and she didn’t want to…. fuck her too. Seriously…. training people is part of her job if we need her to do it. Just fucking do it and don’t whine like a bitch about it. Aaargghhh!
So…. beyond that….. the day was awesome…. also a major hugfest…. I mean I got to hug like everybody… it as crazy. Right when I came in I hugged Joan and told her that it was my last day…. and she all jokingly said that’s fine but I better not go around hugging the boys. As soon as she finished saying this… Adam came running up to me for a mad goodbye hug….. it was hysterical… the look on Joan’s face. Yeah… I hugged guys and girls all day long…. it’s what I do. Plus I got to say goodbye to so many people…. Faye, Adam, Laurel, Sam, Lauren, Ben M., Ben B., Matt L., Kyle D., Alanna, PK, Chris M, Alex Grotevant (I always right out his whole name….. not sure why…. I think I just like the way it looks and the way it sounds….. it makes me all mushy), Eric, Nick Storer, Holly… and then people that should’ve been there were not… Rob and Fawn called in sick so I didn’t get to see them. It was just so awesome. I even practically ran outside the store and left in the middle of bagging to give Gwendolyn a big hug… she all didn’t know it was my last day she said otherwise she would’ve found me to hug me…. she loves me. She talks to my parents all the time about how she misses not having me on the front…. it’s kinda odd…. we’re not in the same department and all… but she’s awesome.
My brother picked me up and as we were headed out to the car was when Lauren came back with Adam, Ben, and Jared…. and Lauren came running up to hug me and then Adam… and then why not… I totally hugged Ben too… it was my last day and fuck why not. My brother was so amused…. afterwards he was all… what is wrong with you. But God…. I’m just gonna miss that place so much. I love so many awesome people there… some also going back to school too…. but still… a lot staying. It’s like become a second family to me and now I’m all emo… not in a bad way…. but in the I’m grinning madly…… so grateful for having met everyone there. God I love that place so much.
And yeah… Alanna made little notes in the service desk about how Laurel and I were the best… it was so sweet. I really like her… I don’t think anyone gives her the credit she deserves. She will work hard if you ask her to…. just most of the CDH’s assume she’ll be lazy…. never ask her to do anything… so she just sits there and doesn’t do anything…. it’s a waste. I really hope she’ll be in the service desk… I think she’ll do good there.
And my favorite last story of work. Alex Grotevant had just punched out and gone to get his paycheck. He was leaving afterwards and I was going to say goodbye if he didn’t. I was auditing his register… but he came up to me himself and thanked me for all I did for him this summer. I was just so touched and so a pile of goo…. just oh God. I can’t say enough how much he is just the sweetest most perfect kid in the world. I mean….. just wow… for a fifteen year old too…. that’s impressive… most kids just whatever at things….. but he was polite and appreciative enough to make a point of thanking me and saying goodbye. Yeah… I’m still totally in love with that kid… he’s just a level of sweetness I’m not used to.
Also… one last crazy customer story. So yeah…. I ring up a woman… she sees my bracelet and grabs my wrist and holds on tight and shakes it while she tells me how much she loves my bracelet. Good God what the fuck…. why are you touching me. I don’t understand how people can think that just grabbing people they don’t know is okay. As a cashier there is a very solid border between my side of the register and the customer’s and they should not be able to cross it. When they do it’s just such an invasion of space… just no. Bad.
So yeah….. after work I went out drinking with my bro.. and my parents showed up for a bit…. I pounded down the fruity martinis… like 4 of them… and then some beer….. so when I got home… and still hadn’t packed…. I was pretty intoxicated. It might explain why I so failed at packing necessary stuff in my suitcase… thought I think I would’ve forgotten that anyway just because I worked the two days before leaving and it was rushed anyway. And that was that… time to move.
So yeah… the trip to LA was long… if not that eventful. Bus ride up from the bridge into Boston was willed with a cute boy. Every time I’ve taken the bus from the bridge into Boston… there has been a cute boy getting on with me…. so strange… and this day was no exception… he got off with his parents at the bus station though.
The flight….. it was called baby flight. Two newborns and like 7 toddlers. They were all just so so cute. I was all… oh God… I want babies…. goddamn it I’m a woman. But oh… they were just so cute. Lauren and Sam have rubbed off on me….. getting me to always look at the babies in my store. Now I’m all baby crazy. But seriously…. babies are just so so cute.
I got into Philadelphia for my connector… picked up a sandwich… got on board with one set of 2 toddlers that had been on my first set… a real nice Latino family. It was the first time flying for the two toddler boys.. and they were right behind me on the first flight…they did real well and were all excited and stuff… it was cool. Flight to LA was early… holy shit… an early flight. Got in about 5 PM. But that was 8 PM eastern time…. so I’d already been traveling for 12 hours…. which is a long day. I got my luggage and headed out to shuttles that take one down around LA…. for only $13 too. Not bad.. better than a taxi. I had to wait like 40 minutes though because the people were all confused about which shuttle to put me on… it was sad…. but I got to the school. Got to the check in for my dorm room….. I could only check in if I had an ID card… so I had to go across campus to get that and then come back to check in and finally move in.
So… my apartment…. really pretty nice…. two bedrooms, a kitchen, a bathroom with a separate room within it for the toilet, and a living room. Very nice. Two beds in each bedroom. It was pretty nice…. felt good sized even if it was small…. still spacious enough. My room had one side occupied… but no one in it. He had moved in early but was spending the last few days with his father I would find out later. The other room was empty. So I got the place to myself for the night… which was nice…. I was tired and needed some major sleep.
I unpacked and realized the horror of oh God….. no sheets or towels… fuck. So yeah… there was roughing it. At least I had a pillow….. which helped immensely even if it still feels uncomfortable. Also a fan…. which is very necessary for my sleeping. Also…. another failure… I had packed books I had already read instead of the new ones I wanted to read….. which sucks… but I still had one book that I was reading that was new and the conclusion of a 7 book series by Weis and Hickman. But I finished that yesterday… so now I’m reading a book I’ve already read… which turns out to be scarily appropriate…. but I’ll get to that later.
Anyway… Saturday was orientation. I got to meet some of the faculty I’d been e-mailing and talking to finally. They were all… so you’re the famous Jason. I was like… oh fuck…. I’m already famous…. this can’t be good. But most of it had to do with the fact that I’m just from real far away and was having all of the difficulty of getting things done from so far away. I met the other first year masters students in theology. It was cool… most of them are older…. 30’s and 40’s. But hell I fit into that crowd better than I do with my own age… so it was all cool. They were all pretty nice too.
Then came the general orientation. I got singled out in it too. Before it started I was talking with one of my fellow theo grad students…. a large black man who was from DC area and had gone to school in Boston. We were lamenting good seafood. It does not exist out here…. which I already knew. So he was talking about Maryland and crabcakes when the dean of students overheard and came over to talk to him because she was from the DC area originally too. Well…. yeah… she saw my rings. She asked about the Lion ring (Loyola Marymount is the Lions) and if I got it because I was coming here. I told her it was pure coincidence and she thought that was cool.
So yeah… during her welcome speech she all was like today I met a student who had a lion ring before he knew he was even coming here like all of this is meant to be or something like that and she pointed to me too. I was all… oh God. I hate being singled out like that sometimes. I would’ve gladly shown off my ring…. but you can’t see it from a distance. It was amusing though. All my fellow theo students asked about it after at lunch and got to admire it.
After that I went back and got to meet my roommates. First…. the guy that actually rooms with me… Marc. First….. totally not attractive. I mean.. he’s an athlete… lacrosse…. so nice body…. but his face is just freaky to me… total turnoff…. all of which is good…. makes things easier if also a bit of a disappointment. Anyway… he’s from New Jersey…. which is nice… a fellow east coaster. He seems nice…. but he’s a bit weird…. to typical frat and sports guy that seems to have nothing more to him…. we will probably have like nothing in common. Also... he’s a sophomore.
Second roommate I met, Chris, moved in with his friends and one of his friend’s bother. Yeah… the brother was fucking hot as fuck…. all skater punk looking… with the longer hair…. I wanted him so bad. Well… Chris is also hot. Has an amazing body… one of the typed that works out 7 days a week and is amazingly muscled but not so much that it’s repulsive. He’s got a nice face too….. not really hot….. but inoffensive enough that his body is all I need to look at. He also seems like completely nothing to talk to about. He’s spent most of his time at his friend’s house anyway.
Final roommate….. Adam…. yeah… I love this guy. Totally love him. First off… he runs track and field for the school…. so yeah his body is just lithe and perfect. Second… his job to help pay for school besides his athletic scholarships is MC at all of the masses. Fuck yes… we can bitch about liturgy stuff too. Also…. he’s into sports which we can talk about too. I rather like him. He’s just so easy to talk to… so talkative and fun. And just the way he talks…. it’s so nice and enjoyable. I wish I was rooming with him…. but living with him is cool enough.
Of course all three of them are straight… that much has already been made clear. So now….. as I mentioned earlier…. about the book I was reading that was appropriate… it comes into play. The book is really bad…. horribly poorly written and edited…. but I read it as a teenager and it’s about two gay teens who fall in love and have a disastrous coming out. Well….. since much of the drama revolves around the problems of being in the closet and whether or not to come out and why they can’t and how hellish it is when they do (takes place in 1980)….. now I’m back in that dilemma. For three years I’ve been completely out. Now….. I’m all back to wondering about whether or not the closet is better for me. It sucks. A lot. Right now it’s about closing time for the library… so I’m gonna leave it at that. I have many thoughts on this subject and I’ll get into it next time plus other stuff.
So for now…. later all.