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[drunkwithpines]

i feel like i am in a tactical retreat, calculatedly sawing off phantom limbs. i have been involuntarily keeping an account of my intolerances, because lately i have become wildly and ineptly vocal about them. so, yes, i have been behaving badly. which i regret, more than you know, but it does, i suppose, map out my limitations, which are apparently desperate to be recognized, and a little sick of being tested.
i've been daydreaming of isolation tanks and diving bells.