[one-shot] Piano Duet
Title: Piano Duet
Characters/Pairings: GACKT/Hyde, mentioned Hyde/Megumi
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Romance, (slight) angst
Summary: "I just know that there's a reason you don't wear your wedding ring whenever you visit me."
Notes: PIANO DUET is a magical song. The lyrics are poetic and beautiful and the music is heart-wrenching.
Disclaimer: I do not own anyone.
The song with subs:
And the story:
You loved me so much and I didn't realise.
It’s too late now.
It was one of those rare day-offs that Hyde could spend all on his own; there was no Yasu or Daigo inviting him out for karaoke and Megumi was out with the little one - Hyde loved his family dearly but he needed a break even from them once a while. Breaks spent with them were few and far between, and Hyde cherished every moment, but even so, he could only take so much before he felt the need for disconnection.
Today, he re-read a few chapters of Devil Man, pigged out on the couch with a chick flick playing on the television and drew a few pictures that had been poking at his mind. He had been playing random tunes on the piano when it had started to rain. The pitter patter of it against the window was annoying, at first, but Hyde began to pick up on its undertone and then he found it almost haunting.
Everything had layers, Hyde believed, even something as simple as rain. It was just precipitation from the clouds but even it had a little something beneath its surface.
Nothing is what it seems.
A shiver ran through Hyde as he listened to the rain joining in with his piano ballad. Indeed, it was haunting; he remembered a large, dark mansion and an old friend who encompassed a whole range of eccentricities. The rain reminded him of ambiguity that had held him lovingly with its sharp claws and the piano reminded him of a suave voice singing him to sleep.
Hyde remembered when Gackt used to play the piano and sing for him while he lazed on the couch. It always rained on those days, as if Gackt’s music and voice had moved the skies to tears. Hyde had shared that sentiment with Gackt once and Gackt had simply shrugged his shoulder in nonchalance.
“It means nothing if it can’t make you cry,” Gackt had told him.
Hyde hadn’t completely understood, then. He had known what Gackt was trying to tell him but he hadn’t understood.
When they had been in Taiwan, it had been easy to see that Gackt had been fighting a growing crush on his Moon Child co-star. It had been obvious to everyone, even to Hyde himself.
If Hyde was completely honest with himself, he too had felt some sort of weird affection for the younger man. Gackt’s uniqueness was endearing in some way, his determination and drive almost childish but heartwarming. The same fondness that people held for young children when watching them play make-believe was the same kind that Hyde felt for Gackt, except Gackt always made his make-believe tales become a reality.
Hyde supposed that was why he had always felt some sort of trepidation when coming into contact with Gackt, fearful that Gackt would somehow turn their feelings, as vague as they were, into actions. Another part of Hyde always hoped Gackt would.
It was on a lazy afternoon, quite like today, when Gackt finally brought up the topic that both of them had been too scared to breach before.
“What are we?” was the question that sounded almost romantic against the melody that both he and Hyde were spinning upon the piano keys together.
Hyde only paused in playing for a moment before he quickly got back into it, matching Gackt’s pace. “What do you think?”
“I don’t know what to think,” Gackt replied honestly. Then he shrugged his shoulders. “I just know that there’s a reason you don’t wear your wedding ring whenever you visit me.”
Hyde chuckled softly. “Figures you’d notice that…”
Gackt smiled a little. “I notice everything about you.”
“I believe you,” Hyde said. He looked at Gackt and nudged him. “So what have you deciphered?”
There was no response for a few seconds.
Do something, Hyde thought, horrified at his own thoughts but unable to change them. Please do something, Gacchan. Please.
Finally, Gackt placed one hand over Hyde’s on the keys, bringing the song to an abrupt end. Hyde’s heart was pumping hard and fast by then and Hyde hoped Gackt couldn’t feel his pulse. If Gackt did, he said nothing about it. He just raised his eyes to meet Hyde’s gaze.
Then he leaned forward and pressed his lips against Hyde’s gently.
Hyde kissed back readily, as if he had been expecting it.
“What’s that you’re playing?” Hyde asked, laying on the couch with only a blanket covering his nudity.
“A love song,” Gackt said from the piano, meeting Hyde’s eyes and then smiling at him, making Hyde’s heart flutter.
“It’s beautiful,” Hyde told him, smiling as well when he heard the rain begin a second later. “It’s so beautiful, you’ve made the sky cry.”
Gackt shrugged his shoulders.
“It means nothing if it can’t make you cry.”
Looking back on those days now, Hyde couldn’t help but feel the pinch of regret. His stupidity or blindness - probably both - had been ridiculous. He wondered how many people had noticed and how many people had understood. How many people had seen that an innocent crush had grown into something so much stronger? Hyde had been faced with it on a regular basis and he hadn’t seen it. How stupid.
How many love songs, Hyde wondered. How many love songs had been written for him? How many attempts had Gackt made to reach out to him, only to be met with indifference or ignorance. Most of the time, it was the latter.
Hyde had only been in it for the intimacy, not the feelings that usually came with it. He had gone to Gackt because Gackt loved him in a way that no one else did. He had returned to Gackt time and time again because he relished being surrounded by such an intense love. Yet, he hadn’t known that that was why he went back to Gackt. He hadn’t understood the reason he was always drawn back to Gackt.
“I can’t see you anymore,” Gackt finally said one day, tired of waiting for a train that wasn’t coming. This was seven years after their relationship had began.
Hyde had a family that Hyde would always return to at the end of the day. Gackt loved everything about Hyde, Hyde’s family included, but he couldn’t carry on like this. He deserved better. He had probably already lost so many other dating prospects because he had closed his heart. He had to open it again, this time to others who would do the same to him.
“I just can’t.”
Hyde wondered if he had known earlier, would things have turned out differently for them?
Hyde was singing and playing the piano. It was a song and tune that he had never heard before today. The notes and words came easily, like they used to whenever he played the piano with Gackt. His fingers danced over the keys and the words flowed out of his mouth before his mind could even think of them.
“You loved me so much and I didn't realise,” Hyde whispered, his voice drowned out by the song he was creating, by the rain. “It’s too late now…”
He paused as a wave of melancholy washed over him, just like the rain did over the streets and roads. A heartache like none other gripped him then and he clenched his hands into fists.
The words that Gackt had been waiting for him to say, Hyde hadn’t been able to say at all because he hadn’t known. He hadn't realised.
“Ne, I’ll return home to you one day,” Hyde said softly to the empty room, to a dear friend who could be more. “Will I be able to tell you on that day?”
Hyde looked out at the rain.
“Thank you,” he whispered. “Thank you…”
I love you too.
Notes: Maaaan, I haven't written GakuHai in ages! How'd this one fare?
Also, I know K.A.Z is the one who wrote the music for PIANO DUET (love that man and the music he writes, seriously) but let's just say it was Hyde, just for this fic. :>
Characters/Pairings: GACKT/Hyde, mentioned Hyde/Megumi
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Romance, (slight) angst
Summary: "I just know that there's a reason you don't wear your wedding ring whenever you visit me."
Notes: PIANO DUET is a magical song. The lyrics are poetic and beautiful and the music is heart-wrenching.
Disclaimer: I do not own anyone.
The song with subs:
Click to viewAnd the story:
You loved me so much and I didn't realise.
It’s too late now.
It was one of those rare day-offs that Hyde could spend all on his own; there was no Yasu or Daigo inviting him out for karaoke and Megumi was out with the little one - Hyde loved his family dearly but he needed a break even from them once a while. Breaks spent with them were few and far between, and Hyde cherished every moment, but even so, he could only take so much before he felt the need for disconnection.
Today, he re-read a few chapters of Devil Man, pigged out on the couch with a chick flick playing on the television and drew a few pictures that had been poking at his mind. He had been playing random tunes on the piano when it had started to rain. The pitter patter of it against the window was annoying, at first, but Hyde began to pick up on its undertone and then he found it almost haunting.
Everything had layers, Hyde believed, even something as simple as rain. It was just precipitation from the clouds but even it had a little something beneath its surface.
Nothing is what it seems.
A shiver ran through Hyde as he listened to the rain joining in with his piano ballad. Indeed, it was haunting; he remembered a large, dark mansion and an old friend who encompassed a whole range of eccentricities. The rain reminded him of ambiguity that had held him lovingly with its sharp claws and the piano reminded him of a suave voice singing him to sleep.
Hyde remembered when Gackt used to play the piano and sing for him while he lazed on the couch. It always rained on those days, as if Gackt’s music and voice had moved the skies to tears. Hyde had shared that sentiment with Gackt once and Gackt had simply shrugged his shoulder in nonchalance.
“It means nothing if it can’t make you cry,” Gackt had told him.
Hyde hadn’t completely understood, then. He had known what Gackt was trying to tell him but he hadn’t understood.
When they had been in Taiwan, it had been easy to see that Gackt had been fighting a growing crush on his Moon Child co-star. It had been obvious to everyone, even to Hyde himself.
If Hyde was completely honest with himself, he too had felt some sort of weird affection for the younger man. Gackt’s uniqueness was endearing in some way, his determination and drive almost childish but heartwarming. The same fondness that people held for young children when watching them play make-believe was the same kind that Hyde felt for Gackt, except Gackt always made his make-believe tales become a reality.
Hyde supposed that was why he had always felt some sort of trepidation when coming into contact with Gackt, fearful that Gackt would somehow turn their feelings, as vague as they were, into actions. Another part of Hyde always hoped Gackt would.
It was on a lazy afternoon, quite like today, when Gackt finally brought up the topic that both of them had been too scared to breach before.
“What are we?” was the question that sounded almost romantic against the melody that both he and Hyde were spinning upon the piano keys together.
Hyde only paused in playing for a moment before he quickly got back into it, matching Gackt’s pace. “What do you think?”
“I don’t know what to think,” Gackt replied honestly. Then he shrugged his shoulders. “I just know that there’s a reason you don’t wear your wedding ring whenever you visit me.”
Hyde chuckled softly. “Figures you’d notice that…”
Gackt smiled a little. “I notice everything about you.”
“I believe you,” Hyde said. He looked at Gackt and nudged him. “So what have you deciphered?”
There was no response for a few seconds.
Do something, Hyde thought, horrified at his own thoughts but unable to change them. Please do something, Gacchan. Please.
Finally, Gackt placed one hand over Hyde’s on the keys, bringing the song to an abrupt end. Hyde’s heart was pumping hard and fast by then and Hyde hoped Gackt couldn’t feel his pulse. If Gackt did, he said nothing about it. He just raised his eyes to meet Hyde’s gaze.
Then he leaned forward and pressed his lips against Hyde’s gently.
Hyde kissed back readily, as if he had been expecting it.
“What’s that you’re playing?” Hyde asked, laying on the couch with only a blanket covering his nudity.
“A love song,” Gackt said from the piano, meeting Hyde’s eyes and then smiling at him, making Hyde’s heart flutter.
“It’s beautiful,” Hyde told him, smiling as well when he heard the rain begin a second later. “It’s so beautiful, you’ve made the sky cry.”
Gackt shrugged his shoulders.
“It means nothing if it can’t make you cry.”
Looking back on those days now, Hyde couldn’t help but feel the pinch of regret. His stupidity or blindness - probably both - had been ridiculous. He wondered how many people had noticed and how many people had understood. How many people had seen that an innocent crush had grown into something so much stronger? Hyde had been faced with it on a regular basis and he hadn’t seen it. How stupid.
How many love songs, Hyde wondered. How many love songs had been written for him? How many attempts had Gackt made to reach out to him, only to be met with indifference or ignorance. Most of the time, it was the latter.
Hyde had only been in it for the intimacy, not the feelings that usually came with it. He had gone to Gackt because Gackt loved him in a way that no one else did. He had returned to Gackt time and time again because he relished being surrounded by such an intense love. Yet, he hadn’t known that that was why he went back to Gackt. He hadn’t understood the reason he was always drawn back to Gackt.
“I can’t see you anymore,” Gackt finally said one day, tired of waiting for a train that wasn’t coming. This was seven years after their relationship had began.
Hyde had a family that Hyde would always return to at the end of the day. Gackt loved everything about Hyde, Hyde’s family included, but he couldn’t carry on like this. He deserved better. He had probably already lost so many other dating prospects because he had closed his heart. He had to open it again, this time to others who would do the same to him.
“I just can’t.”
Hyde wondered if he had known earlier, would things have turned out differently for them?
Hyde was singing and playing the piano. It was a song and tune that he had never heard before today. The notes and words came easily, like they used to whenever he played the piano with Gackt. His fingers danced over the keys and the words flowed out of his mouth before his mind could even think of them.
“You loved me so much and I didn't realise,” Hyde whispered, his voice drowned out by the song he was creating, by the rain. “It’s too late now…”
He paused as a wave of melancholy washed over him, just like the rain did over the streets and roads. A heartache like none other gripped him then and he clenched his hands into fists.
The words that Gackt had been waiting for him to say, Hyde hadn’t been able to say at all because he hadn’t known. He hadn't realised.
“Ne, I’ll return home to you one day,” Hyde said softly to the empty room, to a dear friend who could be more. “Will I be able to tell you on that day?”
Hyde looked out at the rain.
“Thank you,” he whispered. “Thank you…”
I love you too.
Notes: Maaaan, I haven't written GakuHai in ages! How'd this one fare?
Also, I know K.A.Z is the one who wrote the music for PIANO DUET (love that man and the music he writes, seriously) but let's just say it was Hyde, just for this fic. :>