Warning: My Venting Method May Offend
I realized tonight... no one thinks I'm their best friend.
True, people can have more than one... and I understand and believe that. But I don't think I have the relationship in the movies where those two women are each other's worlds. Maybe that's completely fake, and only happens in the movies. I mean, everyone I think who could be that kind of friend... has a sister, or someone else closer to make best friend memories with. Or a boyfriend that is all they need. I've tried so hard to have that one best friend... the one I'd give a kidney too... and there are actually a good deal of my very close friends that I would... but I just don't think anyone of them thinks of me as the girl they have to call when something big happens at 4am... or whatever. I'm in weddings of two of my best friends... and I'm extatic about that! Maybe we're all just too busy with our own lives to remember people who love us? Life is too short, time and love are all we've got to share. Growing up is so sad.
I'm not that person for anyone. No one wants to have that "best friendship that you only find in the movies" with.
It kind of sucks.
I know I have David... but I'm finding myself in more and more need of girl time. Perhaps it's because I missed out on so much in high school... or perhaps I'm to the age where I realize there is more to life than just having a nice man by your side. I want someone to want me to be their best friend that they'd die and lie for...
... I'm probably just tired and stressed.
Yeah, that's it... most definitely. Maybe I already have this... but don't know it. That'd be horrible, to have someone feel that way about me... and not know. Say it like you mean it.