i am, i'm ready to be new again
work killed me today. it feels like there are a thousand and one things going on at the moment, and like we're all running a million miles an hour. it's kind of exhilarating.
on thursday i went on a pub crawl for deaf people with three girls i go to school with, and i feel like it brought about nearly as much change as going to hawaii did, just in a different way. i don't know, but it was so lovely. it changed the way i look at sign language a little, in a good way. when you start using it it's different, it's real, it makes you want to learn more (and you do, you learn so much) and try harder and it's fun. that doesn't mean it wasn't hard - because it really was. i found it difficult to understand the deaf people. they signed so fast and i can't read lips, um, at all, and.. i did fall in love with them - everyone was so lovely.
it was a good night, i got home at 6:30 am.
it's funny though, when you meet this bunch of guys, this gang of black fella's, looking pretty gangstery and scary, and then you start 'talking' with them and they're so.. not like that. the aspect of being deaf slides in and they're softer and different and just because you're trying they're open and, i'm going to use this word again, lovely. i don't know what it's like with the non-deaf group, something tells me it could be the same, but. it was just this really striking thing.
something else:
my friend left for a year of australia and she left her need, her want to take pictures with me. that's what it feels like. i love photography, and i really like taking pictures, but now i am constantly seeing things i want to take pictures of. it makes me think of her and smile. maybe i'll start carrying my camera around more.
another something else:
it amuses me that pete calls zack panic's nanny.
okay.