turn a phrase and rise again

[drunknballerina]

this is currently the background on my phone.

i had a really lovely weekend not too long ago, and i tend to cling to those kind of things. especially when the future doesn't seem particularly bright and happy, i'll usually want to either stay in the past, or go back it. those moments where i was blissfully happy for whatever reason. i could say 'well, and that's no way to live', but it is a way to live, it's just not the way i want to live. it makes me unhappy, because it's such a hopeless longing. that moment is never going to come back. there's no fun in wishing for it to return, all it does is cause sadness to bloom inside me.

so. i read that. the there are far, far better things ahead than any we leave behind. and it relaxed me a little bit. i'm learning to let it go. it makes me feel better, like i can breathe a sigh of relief. even if what the future holds are not things that are actually better, they're still good things. there are good things ahead.

and really, i should remember that all we have is now anyway. now. now. now. now. now. now.

now.