Miscellanious Ramblings
My neck is so stiff, I can't seem to get it loosened up. Going for a massage helped for a day or so. We got a new patio set for the sunroom so I can sit out there and work in a more ergonomic environment... since I hate working in my office and I'm not supposed to sit in my chair (recliner) and work. I went upstairs to work at the desk today and my neck was so tight I could barely sit there. Went to the chiro today (was supposed to go tomorrow but couldn't wait), he got one little bitty pop out of the right side, but it's not enough. I tried to call for a massage but the guy I need is booked today and Friday and only has a couple of slots tomorrow, neither of which worked for me. I might call back as I think that one of them might work, but I'm not sure.
We are heading South on Friday. Not sure about this trip for several reasons. The 6 hour drive. I don't think lots of driving is good for me and my neck. Paul will do most of the driving, I'm sure. I want to get away though. Also, our friends we are visiting rarely see each other so I feel like we are intruding on their rare time together (they say that's not the case).
I need to find things to do. I need to find a passion. I just don't seem to have a passion for what I do anymore. I am actually looking forward to the idea of going back to school... even though right now I'm not sure what i'm going for, other than something to do. Maybe I will find a new passion for something. I don't miss real estate. It was fun for a while. I miss having something to do every day, something that makes me want to get up and get to work.
I'm frustrated at the inability to do much. There are things I'd love to do but I can't because of the stupid muscle problems/ tmj. I miss playing poker but I don't miss the frustration at the people we were playing with. It's funny how just a small % of people can make you not want to go somewhere.
I started researching breast lifts online last night. After looking, I no longer think that's what I need.... I think I may actually NEED a breast reduction. The dr commented that that might be part of where my neck problems are coming from and after looking at what a breast lift would give me, I don't think it would give me what I need. They are just too big. I wish I could donate part of them to some of my less endowed friends. On the upside, maybe I could actually get the insurance to pay for a reduction.
We are heading South on Friday. Not sure about this trip for several reasons. The 6 hour drive. I don't think lots of driving is good for me and my neck. Paul will do most of the driving, I'm sure. I want to get away though. Also, our friends we are visiting rarely see each other so I feel like we are intruding on their rare time together (they say that's not the case).
I need to find things to do. I need to find a passion. I just don't seem to have a passion for what I do anymore. I am actually looking forward to the idea of going back to school... even though right now I'm not sure what i'm going for, other than something to do. Maybe I will find a new passion for something. I don't miss real estate. It was fun for a while. I miss having something to do every day, something that makes me want to get up and get to work.
I'm frustrated at the inability to do much. There are things I'd love to do but I can't because of the stupid muscle problems/ tmj. I miss playing poker but I don't miss the frustration at the people we were playing with. It's funny how just a small % of people can make you not want to go somewhere.
I started researching breast lifts online last night. After looking, I no longer think that's what I need.... I think I may actually NEED a breast reduction. The dr commented that that might be part of where my neck problems are coming from and after looking at what a breast lift would give me, I don't think it would give me what I need. They are just too big. I wish I could donate part of them to some of my less endowed friends. On the upside, maybe I could actually get the insurance to pay for a reduction.