there are fears to be faced, and tremblings to understand. there are new days to brave.

[drunkinmunchkin]

do you ever wonder why you survived something when others did not? have you ever felt guilty for breathing when others have stopped, because you don't know why you're the one who made it out.. and maybe you think it isn't fair or maybe you just don't understand it. step outside, barefoot, onto the cold asphalt pavement of the wet street. the voices of guilt and confusion will whisper that your very being from that day forward is a misplaced accident. maybe i am undeserving, but i'm undeserving and i'm grateful.
because the rain eventually stops and the sun warms the streets.

yesterday a cognitively impaired woman hugged me from nowhere. we were strangers to each other, but she hugged me. maybe she thought this stranger needed it. i hugged her back and in her hug there was so much sincerity and joy. i felt honest.