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i'm sitting here in disbelief at my stupidity. somehow i let something take over my head and practically lost the ability to think properly. instead of questioning i ended up accusing you, and after typing everything i myself was shocked at the way it came out. been feeling guilty since last night, there's nothing i can do to undo what i foolishly did. i know it made you totally pissed, and it makes me feel even worse thinking of how bad i made you feel, when i really had no intention of hurting you that way.
fucked up, there's no other way to describe this. it may seem to you that i don't trust you, but i actually do, and i mean it. when you denied i believed you right away, i knew that something must have gone wrong before that, when i heard what i heard. it just shows how i really meant to confirm it with you at the start, not just point a finger at you and sound like i'd gotten it 100% right beforehand like what i ended up doing. but it's no use, you won't wanna hear anymore even though i wish i could explain everything. all i can do is wait for you to forgive me, and i really hope that you can really understand why it turned out like this, not just forgive me and forget about the matter.
I JUST CAN'T BELIEVE WHAT I DID
fucked up, there's no other way to describe this. it may seem to you that i don't trust you, but i actually do, and i mean it. when you denied i believed you right away, i knew that something must have gone wrong before that, when i heard what i heard. it just shows how i really meant to confirm it with you at the start, not just point a finger at you and sound like i'd gotten it 100% right beforehand like what i ended up doing. but it's no use, you won't wanna hear anymore even though i wish i could explain everything. all i can do is wait for you to forgive me, and i really hope that you can really understand why it turned out like this, not just forgive me and forget about the matter.
I JUST CAN'T BELIEVE WHAT I DID