and bleed to sign my name and then i'll write it in a letter.

[drunkenromance]

i cried tonight. i cried long and i cried hard. i hate my dad. i have never had more emotion towards someone in my whole entire life. all that emotion is ALL hate. every last bit of it. if he died i wouldn't care. i really would not. i probably would be happy. i'm fucking sick and tired of pretending i like him, let alone love him. i wanted to scream that i hated him in his fucking face. i think he knows though. i think that if he was completely honest with himself that deep in the back of mind he hates me too. it's a mutual hate that we have for one another, and it's just something that you just know. what i hate the most is i let him see me cry. i try my best not to, but i can't help it sometimes. it's so easy for him to get to my weaknesses and cut me open. i hate that. i hate it so much. whatever. i'm probably going to hell for writing this. but it's the honest truth. and that's it.

julies's advice://x

NEwherebutxxhere: do what i do
NEwherebutxxhere: when my parents yell at me i just think of something funny
NEwherebutxxhere: and then ill start cracking up and laughing randomly
NEwherebutxxhere: then my dad will get just get madder and ill get in more trouble
NEwherebutxxhere: so actually dont take my advice

love her. :)