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second night in a row at the lawn fete or however the fuck you spell it. lots of hot girls, none of which i would want anything to do with. much love to ducci. always a blast with that kid.
i'd hate to be a depressing drunk fuck but ya know what? that's what i do. so fuck you if you don't like it. i'm just sick of it. i'm lost. plain and simple. i have very few things that make me happy and only one is readily available.
granted i take pride in being lost because i love the chaos theory and hate planning anything, but it's still a bitch. you can be stuck on a schedule which sucks your life away or have no schedule and end up doing nothing. either way you get fucked.
here's what's happening. i'm not posting anymore. it's pointless. i'll still be here on lj to read friends shit to see what's going on but that's it. otherwise there's no point. seriously. how often do i update this thing with something that matters?
unless you know my other lj, don't expect anymore entries from me. if you know it, go there and enjoy the random shit.
yeah i make no sense and i've come to way too many realizations tonight for my own good. i'm going to drink more and drown every bit of it until i wake up. why? not because i can't cope, but because i just don't want to anymore.
no need for lame comments. i quit.
Still I waste another day of my life
And it sickens me to feel this way
Now I can't make up my mind, is this right
How I let you get inside of me?
-dp¬
i'd hate to be a depressing drunk fuck but ya know what? that's what i do. so fuck you if you don't like it. i'm just sick of it. i'm lost. plain and simple. i have very few things that make me happy and only one is readily available.
granted i take pride in being lost because i love the chaos theory and hate planning anything, but it's still a bitch. you can be stuck on a schedule which sucks your life away or have no schedule and end up doing nothing. either way you get fucked.
here's what's happening. i'm not posting anymore. it's pointless. i'll still be here on lj to read friends shit to see what's going on but that's it. otherwise there's no point. seriously. how often do i update this thing with something that matters?
unless you know my other lj, don't expect anymore entries from me. if you know it, go there and enjoy the random shit.
yeah i make no sense and i've come to way too many realizations tonight for my own good. i'm going to drink more and drown every bit of it until i wake up. why? not because i can't cope, but because i just don't want to anymore.
no need for lame comments. i quit.
Still I waste another day of my life
And it sickens me to feel this way
Now I can't make up my mind, is this right
How I let you get inside of me?
-dp¬