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i get so sick of this sometimes. i sound like a broken record.
i was having such a good day. it was gorgeous outside..i was exceptionally productive..my family left..work was a-ok..the yankees are kicking ass..my family and i are getting along SO WELL right now..and i was in a good mood all day. until about five minutes ago, when i just crashed. at least when i'm always down, it doesn't hurt so much. but now i know what it feels like to be happy, and it just makes coming down so much worse. i was talking to someone at work today, and she was telling me about it was so annoying to her that her mom always tells her to be polite, be safe, take care, etc. and all i could think was...wow i wish i had a mother that would be "annoying" like that. i don't really know why i let silly things get to me like that...i hear things like that every day. and really, it didn't bug me that much at the time. until just now, i was sitting here, listening to the game and working on job applications...and i let my mind get the best of me. i just...wish she were here to see all this. she would be so happy. ryan made coopers sophmore team, they have a tournament this weekend even. i just...can't see how this is fair to anyone, except her because at least now she isnt in pain or suffering or depressed anymore. which i could not be more thankful for. but if she hadn't gotten sick in the first place...gah going there never gets me anywhere good. i cant change the fact that she got sick, and i shouldnt dwell on the what if. i dont know. ill stop now, because its not like im saying anything new anyway. im just rehashing a problem that will never be solved.
i was thinking to myself this could be heaven or this could be hell
Liz
We've got to get better said, it's all in your head
We could live through these letters or forget it all together
See the months they don't matter it's the days i can't take
When the hours move to minutes and i'm seconds away
Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care (x2)
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care (x2)
Try to avoid it but there's not a doubt
And there's one thing i can do nothing about
When all that we need is just a reaction
It's too much to ask for when there's no attraction (anymore)
If chasing our dreams was just a distraction
I'll want to remember when i know that i can't go back
Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care (x2)
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care (x2)
Try to avoid it (try to aviod it) but there's not a doubt
And there's one thing and i can do nothing
there's one thing and i can do nothing
there's one thing and i can do nothing about
(Musical Break)
Just ask the question (just ask the question) come untie the knot
Say you won't care (care) (x2)
Retrace the steps (retrace the steps) as if we forgot
Say you won't care (care) (x2)
Try to avoid it (try to aviod it) but there's not a doubt
And there's one thing and i can do nothing
there's one thing and i can do nothing
there's one thing and i can do nothing about
taking back sunday/new american classic
i was having such a good day. it was gorgeous outside..i was exceptionally productive..my family left..work was a-ok..the yankees are kicking ass..my family and i are getting along SO WELL right now..and i was in a good mood all day. until about five minutes ago, when i just crashed. at least when i'm always down, it doesn't hurt so much. but now i know what it feels like to be happy, and it just makes coming down so much worse. i was talking to someone at work today, and she was telling me about it was so annoying to her that her mom always tells her to be polite, be safe, take care, etc. and all i could think was...wow i wish i had a mother that would be "annoying" like that. i don't really know why i let silly things get to me like that...i hear things like that every day. and really, it didn't bug me that much at the time. until just now, i was sitting here, listening to the game and working on job applications...and i let my mind get the best of me. i just...wish she were here to see all this. she would be so happy. ryan made coopers sophmore team, they have a tournament this weekend even. i just...can't see how this is fair to anyone, except her because at least now she isnt in pain or suffering or depressed anymore. which i could not be more thankful for. but if she hadn't gotten sick in the first place...gah going there never gets me anywhere good. i cant change the fact that she got sick, and i shouldnt dwell on the what if. i dont know. ill stop now, because its not like im saying anything new anyway. im just rehashing a problem that will never be solved.
i was thinking to myself this could be heaven or this could be hell
Liz
We've got to get better said, it's all in your head
We could live through these letters or forget it all together
See the months they don't matter it's the days i can't take
When the hours move to minutes and i'm seconds away
Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care (x2)
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care (x2)
Try to avoid it but there's not a doubt
And there's one thing i can do nothing about
When all that we need is just a reaction
It's too much to ask for when there's no attraction (anymore)
If chasing our dreams was just a distraction
I'll want to remember when i know that i can't go back
Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care (x2)
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care (x2)
Try to avoid it (try to aviod it) but there's not a doubt
And there's one thing and i can do nothing
there's one thing and i can do nothing
there's one thing and i can do nothing about
(Musical Break)
Just ask the question (just ask the question) come untie the knot
Say you won't care (care) (x2)
Retrace the steps (retrace the steps) as if we forgot
Say you won't care (care) (x2)
Try to avoid it (try to aviod it) but there's not a doubt
And there's one thing and i can do nothing
there's one thing and i can do nothing
there's one thing and i can do nothing about
taking back sunday/new american classic