face down on the ground
"if you're an island than i'm a shipwreck" - stina, after i told her the lyric that made its way into my myspace headline. it was rather adorable.
something really awesome occurred to me in philosophy, spurred by my frustration in trying to express different forms of arousal when stina and i were talking about it yesterday. i could get the part about being sexually tense out, but then the second one seemed to defy wording. then it occurred to me when when we were throwing around a number of descartes words for different forms of reality and knowlege. mental and physical. there is mental sexuality, and physical sexuality, the former will often result in a physical response and the latter a mental one, but they remain two very separate things. (keep in my mind that this is purely from a female perspective, i make no assumptions about the other gender). mental sexuality is what most people would consider general hornyness, its thinking about sex and sexual things that often results in you being turned on. this was the one that i couldn't describe because i didn't realize that the mental part was its defining trait, that's where it starts and that's what governs it. physical sexuality, the experience which i call being sexually tense, is this very bizarre thing, that makes you feel like all your muscles are constricted and vibrating. its really raw energy that if allowed to stew for too long can turn rather painful. i referred to this in the past as the ache in my hands, now i've come to experience it all over. and the best part is its very sudden, you can be casually walking along and then a stray thought my trigger it and bam.
i'm so glad i figured out that distinction.
class are still going good, all of my homework is reading reading reading, and i have a paper due next with lit. i'm kinda avoiding talking to my parents. k i'm spent with this.
something really awesome occurred to me in philosophy, spurred by my frustration in trying to express different forms of arousal when stina and i were talking about it yesterday. i could get the part about being sexually tense out, but then the second one seemed to defy wording. then it occurred to me when when we were throwing around a number of descartes words for different forms of reality and knowlege. mental and physical. there is mental sexuality, and physical sexuality, the former will often result in a physical response and the latter a mental one, but they remain two very separate things. (keep in my mind that this is purely from a female perspective, i make no assumptions about the other gender). mental sexuality is what most people would consider general hornyness, its thinking about sex and sexual things that often results in you being turned on. this was the one that i couldn't describe because i didn't realize that the mental part was its defining trait, that's where it starts and that's what governs it. physical sexuality, the experience which i call being sexually tense, is this very bizarre thing, that makes you feel like all your muscles are constricted and vibrating. its really raw energy that if allowed to stew for too long can turn rather painful. i referred to this in the past as the ache in my hands, now i've come to experience it all over. and the best part is its very sudden, you can be casually walking along and then a stray thought my trigger it and bam.
i'm so glad i figured out that distinction.
class are still going good, all of my homework is reading reading reading, and i have a paper due next with lit. i'm kinda avoiding talking to my parents. k i'm spent with this.