My updated life
I haven't written in here since my after birthday post, so I figured I'd come back and write one to keep all of you updated. I'm actually in the midst of figuring things out. I really miss school actually, and as much fun as I'm having being home and sleeping all day to go to work at night, it's really not that exciting. I honestly feel like I'm affecting my future by just sitting here, plus I feel like a bum anyway. I can't wait to go back in the fall and finish my schooling at Harper. I seriously have 3 more classes until I'm done there anyway; it won't cost that much, so I don't really know what I'm doing. The band is ok, we played our first real band show Saturday, and I had so much fun doing so. I forgot how fun it was to go up there on a stage and play to people. I don't even care if they like what I'm doing or not, I just had an incredible amount of fun. I'm excited because this Friday I'm playing a show as well, and in a couple of weeks I'm going to the Cubs game with Karl. I'm still in dismay after a loss on opening day yesterday, however it was an eventful game. I just hope this team does something more than a 1 round play off stint from last year.
I've taken up drinking since my turning of 21. I know before I was heavily against it, but I believe I was (now that I think about it,) because I wasn't old enough to do it, and I still think that younger people who do it are stupid. Honestly though, good things come to those who wait. I don't know if drinking is considered good, but to most of you it probably is because it seems like that's what a lot of people do for fun (even myself for that fact.) I don't want to make it an annual thing either, so maybe I should start cutting back when I can. My family has a history of alcoholism, and I don't want to be yet another generation of Sandberg's who pass along that trait. I've also gained 10 pounds (before being 21 actually,) and I practically know why too. Its muscle, and I've gained it in my chest (abs) and I need to break that down again. Some of my clothes don't exactly fit and it bugs the crap out of me. I'm going to try and run and lose that muscle mass I gained or something, because I honestly don't like it there. Sorry, I'm complaining about what I've gained, but at least I'm not what I used to look like I guess.
I'm thinking about cutting my hair shorter again. Right now, it's got that scene look to it, which isn't bad, but it's too much to deal with. I straighten the damn set of hair every day, and I have to wait for it to dry and all this stuff. It's kind of ridiculous, so I don't know. Plus, summer is coming up soon, and I don't know if I want to stand under a straightener when it's 80 plus degrees outside. Maybe I'll trim that or something, I don't even know.
I keep telling myself that I'm going to find some one to fill my void soon, however it seems that for my taste, it will be damn near impossible to even find someone remotely interested in who I am. There are a lot of things I don't like about myself, and that would easily carry over into a bad relationship. But still, having some one incredibly sweet around would be wonderful. I just miss the summer relationship I had, which was probably just another incredible page in my life. I just want to help make a difference in some girl’s life though. I know I'm not a perfect person at all, and I'm not much to look at, but I want someone to just want my company around--and enjoy it. I think that would be really cool for me actually. I'll see what happens.
I also want to help people in this life; I want to be remembered for something; I don't know why though, but I'm having that feeling.
I've taken up drinking since my turning of 21. I know before I was heavily against it, but I believe I was (now that I think about it,) because I wasn't old enough to do it, and I still think that younger people who do it are stupid. Honestly though, good things come to those who wait. I don't know if drinking is considered good, but to most of you it probably is because it seems like that's what a lot of people do for fun (even myself for that fact.) I don't want to make it an annual thing either, so maybe I should start cutting back when I can. My family has a history of alcoholism, and I don't want to be yet another generation of Sandberg's who pass along that trait. I've also gained 10 pounds (before being 21 actually,) and I practically know why too. Its muscle, and I've gained it in my chest (abs) and I need to break that down again. Some of my clothes don't exactly fit and it bugs the crap out of me. I'm going to try and run and lose that muscle mass I gained or something, because I honestly don't like it there. Sorry, I'm complaining about what I've gained, but at least I'm not what I used to look like I guess.
I'm thinking about cutting my hair shorter again. Right now, it's got that scene look to it, which isn't bad, but it's too much to deal with. I straighten the damn set of hair every day, and I have to wait for it to dry and all this stuff. It's kind of ridiculous, so I don't know. Plus, summer is coming up soon, and I don't know if I want to stand under a straightener when it's 80 plus degrees outside. Maybe I'll trim that or something, I don't even know.
I keep telling myself that I'm going to find some one to fill my void soon, however it seems that for my taste, it will be damn near impossible to even find someone remotely interested in who I am. There are a lot of things I don't like about myself, and that would easily carry over into a bad relationship. But still, having some one incredibly sweet around would be wonderful. I just miss the summer relationship I had, which was probably just another incredible page in my life. I just want to help make a difference in some girl’s life though. I know I'm not a perfect person at all, and I'm not much to look at, but I want someone to just want my company around--and enjoy it. I think that would be really cool for me actually. I'll see what happens.
I also want to help people in this life; I want to be remembered for something; I don't know why though, but I'm having that feeling.