wow...
what do you do when you have no idea what to do?
and your scared of hurting people by the decision you make?
due to the chance you might loose them,
and then youll regret everything you did in the beginning anyway.
what do you do whent he one person you want to talk to is gone?
and never coming back.
no matter how bad you need to talk to them.
because you know if you did get to talk to them.
then things would be different.
if someone, anyone, can answer these questions itll help.
this past month has been nothing but wishful thinking. wondering why things happen and why you loose people who mean the world to you in everyway possible. It hasent been easy, and I am scared of hurting people I love because of stupid decisisions I might make soon or a later. I wish I could tell them what I think not having to worry about their reaction. for once, Id like to think about myself than other people, but I never do. I am to scared to loose the people who mean most to me.
I could pretty much say I wouldnt even be here without some people that have dropped everything to make sure I was okay. and thanks to them, I am okay. I know I am. I am just scared of loosing people that mean alot to me.
Courtney Robin Grucshow, I couldnt ask for a better friend if I wanted to. thanks so much for understanding me through all my troubles. know that I am here for you. and thatll never change... ever. I love ya pooks.
I guess thats all... sorry for rambling. I Just had to get a few things out and I feel better.
OH and before I forget... for all those people who are telling dumb lies to make others mad at them, its pretty low. and you should know that. and even worse, for the people who believe them over the truth, thats gay. you say you love someone then go and do the dumbest things to loose their trust. then make shit up? ha. some people are real shady, but whatever. ok thats all.
and the more I try to understand you
the harder it is...
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and your scared of hurting people by the decision you make?
due to the chance you might loose them,
and then youll regret everything you did in the beginning anyway.
what do you do whent he one person you want to talk to is gone?
and never coming back.
no matter how bad you need to talk to them.
because you know if you did get to talk to them.
then things would be different.
if someone, anyone, can answer these questions itll help.
this past month has been nothing but wishful thinking. wondering why things happen and why you loose people who mean the world to you in everyway possible. It hasent been easy, and I am scared of hurting people I love because of stupid decisisions I might make soon or a later. I wish I could tell them what I think not having to worry about their reaction. for once, Id like to think about myself than other people, but I never do. I am to scared to loose the people who mean most to me.
I could pretty much say I wouldnt even be here without some people that have dropped everything to make sure I was okay. and thanks to them, I am okay. I know I am. I am just scared of loosing people that mean alot to me.
Courtney Robin Grucshow, I couldnt ask for a better friend if I wanted to. thanks so much for understanding me through all my troubles. know that I am here for you. and thatll never change... ever. I love ya pooks.
I guess thats all... sorry for rambling. I Just had to get a few things out and I feel better.
OH and before I forget... for all those people who are telling dumb lies to make others mad at them, its pretty low. and you should know that. and even worse, for the people who believe them over the truth, thats gay. you say you love someone then go and do the dumbest things to loose their trust. then make shit up? ha. some people are real shady, but whatever. ok thats all.
and the more I try to understand you
the harder it is...
leave comments ♥