I am colorblind coffee black and egg white pull me out from inside i am ready i am ready i am
Haven't updated since sunday i think. Not a whole lot has happened. Everything with kelly and me are great. I had my first psych/math class. The teacher is a nice old chinese lady, which means you cant understand a word she says. Had a Spanish test on wednesday and i aced it. I have this whole new outlook about school. I actually study, i actually do my hw, and it really has shown me that it actually helps. I participate a little more in discussions and when the teacher calls on me i kind of know what i am talking about. I got a huge anthropology test on wednesday. It will be nice, i get that out of the way, long day working, and then......KELLY TIME. Of course this week is going to drag some major ass. Saturday is Johnny's 30th bday party at a bar/bowling alley. I don't know if i am going to go yet. I mean i love all of them to death, but they don't really do it for me anymore. I think its bc i dont have kelly with me. I used to love hanging out with all of them, but after kelly came into the pic and started hanging out with them too, it made me realize how special she is. It also made hanging out with everyone that much more special. It sucks doing things back at home without the other puzzle piece that used to share everything with you. Kelly just told me tonight that one of her guy friends tells her all the time that he likes her. Now i know i have nothing to worry about with kelly, but if the guy makes any kind of move i don't know what i would do. I have 2 pet peeves. When someone tells me that something is bothering them, or they know something i dont know, or announces something then caught it off, and never say anything about it....and guys who hit on girls when they know they have boyfriends. Its like all bc you can't get a girl buddy, don't attempt ruining someone else's life when they got something great. I can't stand guys like that, and i want to beat the crap out of all guys that do it, not just the ones that do it to my girlfriend. Like i want to know if they attempt anything, just so i know that kelly is handling herself after situations. I know she is a big girl, and she survived 17 1/2 years of her life without me, but at the same time i just like hearing it from her that she is ok and she handled the situation well. I know that if some asshole does try something she will take care of the situation. She will be fine. I have all the trust and faith in her. I just wish that i could be there for her in more ways, and that i would learn to control my feelings about stuff before letting it get to me. I love her to death and she is my bright star in the dark sky. I would do anything for her, i would give up anything for her, and i want to be with her. She is the best thing that has happened to me since i learned to drive [if i didn't know how to drive, we wouldn't be where we are babe bc it all started with me driving you home ;)]. Thank you for being patient with me...i know i haven't been making your college experience fun so far, but i will change for the better and everything will be back to normal. I really want that. I am nervous about getting excepted next year to ASU. That is the first step to the future i want. If that doesn't happen, its going to make things a lot harder but not impossible. I don't care what it takes, i will have the money for an apartment next year and if kelly can help out, great, if she can't, great. I don't want her money...i will support her in every way. I honestly believe that an apartment for us would be a great idea. We spent almost everyday together over the summer...for decent amount of time, and not once been bored, aggravated, or wishing we were somewhere else. It doesn't matter what we do, we always have and will continue to have the best times of our lives. That is the one thing that keeps me going. Knowing that i will be with her soon enough. Good things happen to those who wait. I will wait for kelly forever if i have to. I love her to death and really can't wait to look into her eyes. I LOVE YOU BABE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!SO MUCH MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!MUAH!!!!!!!!!!!! until next time...