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I’ve been wanting something that I didn't know what it was. Although after this weekend I think I figured it out. Plain and simple I want to go back to Umass. To make a long story short, the biggest reason I ever wanted to come home (along with others of course) was because of Samantha. I went last weekend to Umass with her and it was wonderful. I loved the feeling of being there with her. I always have, it always felt right when she was visiting and such.
I honestly think this summer has been more stressful than the school year it self was. With all this shit socially, financially, and everything else theres no place I can go sometimes and cool off. At school I can sit in my room and Dave and I will get into some philosophical discussion about something so non philosophical (win). Just like that though things would be off my mind. Here though, I have no room to go and feel comfortable, and no room-mate to be an idiot to make me forget. I’ve buried myself in my room to help me forget about other things (until other things get tied into my room).
I dunno, so much for long story short. I just want my room done, then I’ll feel better. Hell I’ll actually have a place to live.. I still havent moved into my house technically, the only things unpacked from school is my computer, PS2, and clothes. That’s all I have. So one month after I unpack my shit I have to pack it back up… fucking awesome.
I should find something to do.
It's Samantha and my 11 months today! I know it silly to count ever month (we havent been) but this is a big one because its just before a year! I love her so much, and all that we've been through we deserve eachother. It almost feels like we earned the happiness that we share. It feels so good to be so in love, I swear I have never felt anything this amazing before :).
Samantha baby I love you so very much. You really are my angel, I never want to take you for granted (sp?) Mwah!
I honestly think this summer has been more stressful than the school year it self was. With all this shit socially, financially, and everything else theres no place I can go sometimes and cool off. At school I can sit in my room and Dave and I will get into some philosophical discussion about something so non philosophical (win). Just like that though things would be off my mind. Here though, I have no room to go and feel comfortable, and no room-mate to be an idiot to make me forget. I’ve buried myself in my room to help me forget about other things (until other things get tied into my room).
I dunno, so much for long story short. I just want my room done, then I’ll feel better. Hell I’ll actually have a place to live.. I still havent moved into my house technically, the only things unpacked from school is my computer, PS2, and clothes. That’s all I have. So one month after I unpack my shit I have to pack it back up… fucking awesome.
I should find something to do.
It's Samantha and my 11 months today! I know it silly to count ever month (we havent been) but this is a big one because its just before a year! I love her so much, and all that we've been through we deserve eachother. It almost feels like we earned the happiness that we share. It feels so good to be so in love, I swear I have never felt anything this amazing before :).
Samantha baby I love you so very much. You really are my angel, I never want to take you for granted (sp?) Mwah!