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Apr 22, 2004 21:20

oh my god i miss my little brother so much.ever since he died i have felt so alone.i never wanted him to die.he wasnt supposed to.i have never felt more depressed than i do right now.i wanna see him soo bad.why does shit like this always happen to me.why does MY little brother have to die, he never did anything wrong to anyone.i wish it was me instead.god.why does everyone feel like my enemy all the time. i never never wanted any of this.i never wanted to feel depressed and angry.i feel so dark now.its weird.ive had enough of this and im sick and tired of it.and worst pf all no one understands me ,as much as people say they do , they really dont.their brother isnt deaqd, they arent kicked out of school, their parents didnt kick them out of their own house and disown them.ugh.i hate this.i hate being sad all the time.i wish i just didnt have to deal with any of this.im supposed to be a good person.and i failed miserably at that.im supposed to have a good family and not get in trouble all the time.but that didnt happen either.i wish i just never existed and that no one would ever have to deal with me and mty shit again.it would probably make everyone else alot fucking happier.i just ruin everything..............
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