Musing about Music Colledge and the gayness that is the holidays and my mind...
This post may not be a very accurate description of my general day-to-day life at colledge or my permannent feelings, this is just how I feel at the moment - and some of that may be generally correct, some may be just feelings of the moment.
Right now I feel a bit poopey. I'm tired and fed up that it's the holidays. I'm back in G-town which is great, and I'm at the home of a very close friend who I love very much :-)
But I feel weird...maybe it's work tiring me out, or me missing colledge, or being so close to what is now my "normal" life, but not quite there.
Or maybe it's just I feel like we're growing apart, and I feel a little foolish and silly.
And I miss my bands - it was all starting to come together a bit - I was really singing and fronting a band. And I still haven't had my first practice with my backing band! I just hope I can pull it off in a gig...
And my musical...GAH! I want to write this SO MUCH! It's just, I don't know if I can...it's so hard, and I'm so young, and I'm nowhere near musically talented enough to write a full score! Lyrically though, I think I am, but I don't want that...this is my project, it is my vision entirely and I have to be the driving force behind it! It's just so hard...
Anyway, I have moped a bit now, I don't really know why...
Oh and I feel I should add, this music colledge is the best thing that's ever happened to me! I'm so proud of it, to be a part of it, and I love the opportunitites it has given me and the people I have met (mostly...)
Anyways I'm gonna go, bye xxxxx