soooo i think im done with this shit!
so today i woke up and was like fuck i got school and i didnt want to go. but its all good i made it. its kinda funny cuz today i called jess when i knew she was in class just to make sure she was ok. then i went to class and sat there wondering why the fuck i was there and i was like o yeah i need to learn something. then gym came around i love gym i get away with anything in that class. cortney was there today so we talked its kinda funny cuz she is in the same boat as me. her best friend got with her boy friend while they were going out. and now they broke up and this "best friend" is still trieing to get with him. and im in the same boat. my ex like my best friend and i still REALLY like her. me and cortney both know were never gonna have a nother chance with them so we were like well what you gonna do. so now me and her can talk cuz we both understand whats going on. then today in adult living i heard the greatest quote "You can either be right or You can be happy"-(unknown) i think thats so true. but then i had study hall and jess called me and i told her i was busy and i didnt no if i could call her but of course i found time for her! and then she came and got me for sylvan. and then she said brennan i love you when i was leaving. i knew she didnt mean it the way i wanted her to but it still made my day. then she pick me up. it was the greatest thing ever. when we got to my house she gave me this big hug and thats what made my nite. i really miss that from her. just that nothing else, it never mattered just when she hug me and while when she told me how much she cared about me those two things right there. but now that i told her what jeff said she doesnt no what to beleive and he told her i was lieing so of cours she's gonna beleive him. but i told her, thats ill i had to do, it was eatting away at me.so then i get home and the world and a half IMs me about this hole fucking thing. so i have come to conclusions that im just gonna do every one the favor.1) im gonna not talk to jess cuz when i do she gets mad and plus i need to get over her cuz she doesnt want to give me a second chance.2) im gonna help alycia with her car that way she can throw it in her familys face that she did do it and so she learns cars cuz she really wants to learn.3)brooke i dont no what im gonna do yet but its in my head.4)im gonna focuse on school so i pass.and 5)focuse on the band so my dream will come part way true of getting out this shit life i have and being happy. not that im not happy now but being able to say i play drums for a living would be the second most greatest feeling in the world.(i think you all now what the first is for me)but now that i have had this nite of drama that i really didnt want to have im gonna go and sleep and go to my world were theres no bull shit and i have the car i want and the crew to help me on it(alycia). but i must go later.