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i'm so fucking depressed. i can't wait to leave this place. there are moments, few and far in between, when i actually think about staying. then something happens and reminds me that this definitely isn't the place for me to be. and as much as i want to tell someone how much i hate myself and my life, i can't bring myself to do it. i mean, everyone who knows me knows i despise it here, but they don't really know why. or to what extent. and as much as i need to tell someone why, i can't physically get the words out of my mouth. and when everyone here asks why i'm leaving, all i can say is, "i'm just an east coast girl." when what i really want to say is on the tip of my tongue, begging to said.
i feel like it's a chore getting through everyday. i cry myself to sleep on a regular basis now, and it's so irrational i can't stand it. i see myself being ridiculous, but i can't help it. i'm just...hopeless.
i want to be happy. so what's stopping me?
i feel like it's a chore getting through everyday. i cry myself to sleep on a regular basis now, and it's so irrational i can't stand it. i see myself being ridiculous, but i can't help it. i'm just...hopeless.
i want to be happy. so what's stopping me?