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what the fuck.
i feel like fucking shit.
i was crying today alone in my room. i was lying on my bed, crying like the stupid emotional fuck-up i am, thinking, "im fucking alone. im really fucking alone this time."
usually when i cry like that, all loud and sappy and sobby and fucking retarded, im usually thinking, "its ok. i have people who love me."
now i just feel like shit.
today fucking sucks.
and everywhere i go in the house, my dog fucking follows me and lays down and spreads his ass gas into the atmosphere and i have to leave because the smell is so raunchy.
yeah you think its funny. fuck you.
i cleaned the basement. my room. the fucking bathroom. the kitchen. all this useless shit, hoping it would make my mom happy.
she's never fucking happy.
im one of those sorry-ass kids who cant make their parents happy.
fuck this.
i just want to sit and watch star wars all day like i have been for the past week. i want to sit on my fat fucking ass and shove fucking junkfood in my mouth and slobber during the scenes where luke skywalker has his closeups.
yeah.
and i will deteriorate.
i feel like fucking shit.
i was crying today alone in my room. i was lying on my bed, crying like the stupid emotional fuck-up i am, thinking, "im fucking alone. im really fucking alone this time."
usually when i cry like that, all loud and sappy and sobby and fucking retarded, im usually thinking, "its ok. i have people who love me."
now i just feel like shit.
today fucking sucks.
and everywhere i go in the house, my dog fucking follows me and lays down and spreads his ass gas into the atmosphere and i have to leave because the smell is so raunchy.
yeah you think its funny. fuck you.
i cleaned the basement. my room. the fucking bathroom. the kitchen. all this useless shit, hoping it would make my mom happy.
she's never fucking happy.
im one of those sorry-ass kids who cant make their parents happy.
fuck this.
i just want to sit and watch star wars all day like i have been for the past week. i want to sit on my fat fucking ass and shove fucking junkfood in my mouth and slobber during the scenes where luke skywalker has his closeups.
yeah.
and i will deteriorate.